Definitely Me.

LIst Cut Down~~~

2011-09-05T12:42:00.002+08:00

Yeap... I have manage to bought some of the items in the list.

Here are the renewed one :

Skin Care

- DONE! The best thing is, I got a better set from this and a very reasonable price. The other best part is that my skin is getting better!!! Woo Hoo!!!! Who want a good product at reasonable price... do inform me, I'll help you guys get it.

Make Up

-DONE! hehehe ... and lovin it.

Below would be the revised list... hehe ....

THE BIG GUN LIST

IPHONE 5

NETBOOK (any brand is ok)

HOUSE (just the downpayment)

CAR (SATRIA GTI - 2ND HAND CAR)

The List is back!!!

2011-07-12T21:09:00.019+08:00

Hurrmmm.... I'm not sure whether I have fulfilled my previous wishlist . Malas nak korek old archives....

Anyway.... Here's a list that I think I can get by end of 2011!

Instead of a 'Wishlist', I prefer to do a check list. You know , to stop dreaming and just strive

to get it. It works better for me as if I make it into wishing only, the only think

I can do is wish and that's

all. But with a 'Checklist', it's

kinda like job to do list whereby you must do it or attain it no matter

how busy you are. Hehehehe....

Here it is.....

Category

Shoes

Yep.... this

category will change quite frequently until the day I purchase them ^_^

Skin Care

I supposed to get this thing early this year but since I'm unemployed at that time, I have to close my eyes and cancel the deal.

Make Up

I know ... I know..... 'TAMAK' kikikikiki.... what can I do .. can't resist. We just choose and let the money pave the way.

I'll add up more stuff once I look around... :D

Dear Waitress and the crew, Do not make that face in front of customers.

2011-07-03T01:35:00.002+08:00

Dear Ms. Cashier and Waitresses,

I have a story to tell your crew.

Once upon a time, Maryam and Tasha went to Secret Recipe at Gurney Plaza to spent sometime celebrating Maryam's victory in getting her dream job. Maryam want to eat cake and Tasha want to eat something decent. So our journey begin when we walk into the outlet looking for an empty table, and wallaaaahh~~ we got a table in front of the cake's display. This make it easier for us to order the cake without leaving the table.

After placing our order, we saw an empty table at the corner of the outlet. We inform the waitress that we want to switch place but the waitress said,"Owh sorry, we can't change place coz later the system will confuse," . What an answer. Plus we told her that we want to switch place because it's hot and maybe sitting under the air-cond ventilation will cool us down. She add, " It's hot because the mall has been closed and the air-cond can't get any cooler,". We are so confuse with the reply. Fine. We just ignore.

Later, we heard a quarrel between the crew and an Arabic guy. Apparently, the crew is closing the outlet and wouldn't take any order from the customer even though it's just a slice of cake. They only give the cake to that guy when he plead that he will only take 2 minutes to eat the cake as the crew is closing the outlet in a hurry. By that time, my mood to order a cake has been shut down as the crew shut off the light of the cake display. At the same time I saw the cashier hurriedly print out all the bills and told the waitress to give it to the remaining customer.

Witnessing the event, both of us proceed to pay and leave the outlet. Before we leave, one of the waitress or something saw a group of people trying to dine in but loudly , she told other crew at the main gate, "Jangan bagi depa masuk makan , kita nk tutup dah," in a harsh and loud voice. Her voice is so loud , I believe everyone can hear her.

After received the change, we gladly walk out of Gurney's Secret Recipe outlet.

The end.

and now, I'v been thinking...

How did they train their staff?

Can they act based on politeness?

They can even make faces when entertaining the customers. After this, I definitely will take away only. No matter which Secret Recipe's outlet I go .

나는 최고의!!

2011-07-02T13:40:00.002+08:00

Woohoooo!! Got a call from one of the company that I went for the interview on last Tuesday. I GOT THE JOB!!!!

It takes a long time to get a job that I wanted since the day I left college. Especially in Penang. No doubts that it will be a tough one and hard work is necessary to resume back in the Tourism industry but what's the best way to be successful rather than hard work??

I have to report to work this Monday, 4th July 2011. It's the same date as Zakiah. She'll be starting her job at OSK this Monday too. Fighting for both of us!!!

There are lots of mixed feeling on this as I have left Tourism stuff since the day I worked for Dell. heeee .. I know... we are not suppose to forget what we have learned. But how can I remember if I'm not using what I learned in my daily life? It's tough. Despite all the doubts that I have, I just ignore and flip back some of the books that I have to support my lack of knowledge in what I'm gonna do.

There's only 1 song that come to mind when I'm prepping myself for this coming Monday. Here it is... 내가 제일 잘나가 ---- 나는 최고의

Invasion of the dandruff.

2011-07-01T14:00:00.002+08:00

Thanks to my current Pantene anti-dandruff shampoo, my scalp has been invaded by ugly looking dandruff. That's right. It's ugly because it create those flaky dry skin and it's all over the place. I bet the shampoo has milk in it as my scalp can't tolerate milk. It has lactose intolerant ^_- . Uhuh.. that's right.

Anyway, I'm too broke to change my shampoo thus I keep on using it despite the occurrence of those dandruff. As a result, you can see my visible dandruff on my forehead. O.O Gosh!

So I asked my mom to buy me some lime so I can scrub some of them on my scalp to get rid of the flaky stuff which has been inhabit my scalps like for the past weeks. I'm not sure whether it's the lime or the kaffir lime that I need, but I think either one of them will works fine. We called lime in malay is limau nipis and the kaffir lime is limau purut .

Looks like this evening , there will be a loud scream from the bathroom as I'm pretty sure that there are lots of 'luka' on my heads. With the acidic factor in the lime, I bet there will be battle of pain on my scalps.

If there are other information on losing the dandruff, let share it here. :D

P.S : my skin is getting better after few days applying the cream. The only thing left now is the dry skin that waiting to be peel off. Next stop ---> scar treatment. traditional way

Eczema Attack.

2011-06-30T18:31:00.003+08:00

Those who have known me for quite sometimes will definitely that I'm not a healthy person. Hehehe... Anyway, I most widely known for having a frequent rash on my body part and it kept on appearing and leaves a mark on my body.

Up till few days ago, I have no idea what trigger those rashes. I went to different doctors and none of them can give an absolute answer. Some will say normal rashes, fungal infection , bacteria stuff and yada yada yada. But i firmly believes that's it an Eczema. There's only 1 doctor that actually mention that it could be triggered by my favourite food which happen to be chicken.

I've been eating chicken everyday since I was born. My parent own a chicken rice shop and famous for it's 'ayam percik'. But for some reason, I never thought bout chicken. As for me, chicken is just like rice, so when I think about my favourite food, the only thing I can think of is my Sushi. Since it's seafood , i thought maybe that's the reason I have these rashes as I do eat Sushi frequently.

Even after sometime I didn't eat sushi, the rashes still flare up. Since that, I just ignore the 'favourite food' that I need to figure out as I thought nothing is working.

Well recently, out of nowhere I started to check on my 'favourite food' again while I'm eating. I do notice that my rashes seems very itchy and reddening with a couple of inflammation. So I have decided to not eat chicken for a few days.

As a result of this fast, my rashes not only less ithcy , less redness, and no longer inflate . It's a good news for me as I know what trigger my rashes but the negative part is I have to say farewell to my beloved chicken. I'm still adjusting to it and sometime I tend to forgot about it .

After the swelling and the redness have reduced, I saw an article on eartclinic.com on how to reduces the eczema. I saw 2 methods that really brings joy to the user which is by using Apple Cider Vinegar and Virgin Coconut Oil. Both of this items can be use by placing a small amount on the eczema and it also can be consume. *Do not consume the one that you have place on the eczema ^_^*

I'll be definitely try this method, but yesterday, I have actually use a vitamin E cream moisturizer by Colonial Dames on my rashes. I thought it would flare like hell as there's some cuts on my rashes as I have been scratch like hell. But ti my surprise, I redness and itchiness have tremendously reduced within an hour and even those dry skin flakes peel off fast. Compared to when I didn't do anything to it, applying this cream really does speed up the recovery.

Here's a picture of the item that I use.

I'm not sure whether this can help others but it definitely works for me. To those who want to try, you can test on 1 part of rashes on your body and apply the cream to it. If it getting worse, please, do not proceed.

Happy Trying.

P/S : Do no blame me for your action . ^_^. It might works for you or might not. Picture taken from Colonial Dames website. Check it out!

Clean CUT

2011-06-29T18:10:00.001+08:00

It's been ages I'm tryin yo find a fuss free template and Walla~ it's here. Total simplicity. Satisfied!

Pray to Allah.... May all my actions lead to a better life onwards...

2011-06-29T00:09:00.002+08:00

Amin. Doa-doakan la .... tak larat dah nk stay like this... tiring and boring... heee..

Anyway , I just attend an interview at one of the travel agencies. I didn't searching a vacant job at a travel agent is quite tough . It seems like there's no vacancies at all. Thank Allah I managed to get this interview. There's a high percentage that I'm gonna get it but till no black and white confirmation from them, I would stand back and pray.

From what I just listened during the interview, the job itself is what I actually want from the industry. Even though I do understand a lot of hard work and effort need to be present but I believe the reward will be great. Especially when doing something that I really like.

Even though it's a marketing post, but it's actually all in one. This give me the opportunity to explore and master a lots of different skills at the same time. Let's hope that the post will be mine and it leads to a better , greater and successful future for me and my family.

AMIN

P/S : Congratulation to my dearest friend, Nur Zakiah Hanis for getting a place at OSK!!! Chukaee!!!

It's all about Mandarin

2011-02-20T21:48:00.002+08:00

I started to feel the pressure . Pressure of not doing what I want to do. I can't get any jobs related to my field. I want to be a tour coordinator, a tour leader and a tour guide *for this one, I might be getting the license latest by next year*. Every time I want to apply for a position of reservation officer or tour coordinator, there's always an obstacle. They will state thereMANDARIN is a must language. Well, that's what you get when you live in Penang.

I had enough of that. Why can't they just get that out from the requirement. I know that it would be an advantage to converse in 3rd language but hey, other people need to work too. Might as well they put in WE WANT CHINESE PEOPLE ONLY! What can I do, it's Penang.

The Parent start to questioning when I'm gonna get a job. Yep... I've been jobless for 2 months as I suppose to continue my study in February but I have spent my parent's money enough and I think it's time to move on with my own money. Even though my savings from working in Dell before almost kaputt~ I'll figure something out.

So, I plan to work for a while , get that tour guide license and get enough savings and flew to KL. I can't see my future in Penang. I searched for tour related jobs in KL and guess what it's so different from Penang. Among the job advertisements I saw, out of 10, only 1 required Mandarin as they dealing with China market. Less discrimination, and more opportunities. That's what I'm looking for.

For awhile, I think I better grab any part time jobs before I go insane in Penang. Hopefully, it's not too late to pull this off.

BMI 22.75 - Asian calculator

2011-02-18T20:24:00.000+08:00

A weighing scale has become my close friend since I purchased it last week. People surrounding me said that my body is fine and not that fat and all I need to do is maintaining my weight. What they see is definitely from the outside whereby the flabby fats surrounding my waist, the cellulites and some EXTRA 'meat' on my ass are not visible.

I checked my BMI for Asian as they says that Asian can't really use the International BMI calculator as it will be based on US and European. I checked with both and it says that I'm in the normal level. For a moment, I'm relieved BUT that's not the bad news.

One of the article in the Best Running Tips state a BMI reading of 22.75 will be consider overweight for Asian as we have lower body fat. Thus, even though I'm tall, I'm an Overweight Asian. So much for a normal reading of my BMI.

Despite my attempt to lose those weight, I can't control my snacking habits. Errmm... sometimes the snacking habit turn into a meal. *Sigh* Quite hard to discipline myself. However, I manage to notice that I started to eat more lately as I always stay up late since I have nothing to do and it giving me the hard time to wake up early go for a quick jog around my housing area. I should sleep in early tonite, at least at 12.30 am . Well, we need to start from a certain point and can't just force ourself to make a quick change.

I believe I have to reduce around 10 kg to look better. Hope I can do it!! Fighting!

KIA K5

2011-01-27T14:59:00.003+08:00

Let's blame Athena: Goddess of War drama for making me half crazy with the extreme gorgeous Kia car that they used. It took me some time to google up what car they are using and alas... That lovely beauty is indeed KIA K5 or known as Kia Optima 2011 in the US.

Let the video talk.

I prefer black colour as the backlight looks great in dark.

Animal Signs Forecast for 2011

2011-01-26T20:45:00.002+08:00

Here's the 2011 year forecast for all you Dragon peeps~~

Dragon - 1916, 1928, 1940, 1952, 1964, 1976, 1988, 2000
To help you this year. Take control and focus on putting on all the right moves to achieve success. Avoid making hasty decisions. An ideal time to concentrate on advancing your professional life than your love life because opportunities for romance will not be so thriving.

Relationship:
• Best to focus on your career if Single Dragons are not finding much luck in love this year.
• If in a relationship or married, expect a time to bond with your loved ones and a good break from romantic problems.

Health:
• Take care as you are prone to illnesses and therefore, don't push yourself too hard in all that you do.
• Pay attention to all the small things like diet, physical fitness, etc.

and here's some for Snake peeps~

Snake - 1917, 1929, 1941, 1953, 1965, 1977, 1989, 2001

Life gets interesting and challenging this year! Get ready and pack your bags for new adventures – literally – as travel opportunities are abound. There's a chance of increasing wealth and romantic luck as well. However, be wise in all your endeavors and take caution when you travel.

Relationship:
• Single Snakes need to try harder to attract attention from people they like.
• Those no longer single need to practice tolerance to ensure stability in their relationship.

Health:
• Take extra care as your health is not too strong this year.
• Exercise caution and do not disregard safety rules in all that you do as you are prone to injuries this time around.

Pamper IT!

2010-11-06T12:52:00.002+08:00

I'm a Facial Mask freaks!! I just love the feeling when it laid on my face. That's my temporary exit from work's stress.

So today, i'm goin to clean up all those annoying white thing on my face. Haha.. Eventhough i wore a lot of masks, my face still not good.

Why? Because of my food choice. If you wear thousand of masks but didn't eat proper food, it won't work. I learned by myself.

WHEN? When i keep on complaining that the mask keep on giving me pimples. It turn out that, for the whole week, i've been munching peanuts.. Hahaha.. No wonder so many pimple appear.

So the conclusion is PEANUT IS A BIG NO NO FOR ME.

Soya freeze.. Old town

2010-11-06T04:13:00.001+08:00

It's a plain soya. Better buy from outside. Btw.. Just created a twitter account under xcream_ouch.

FooD FooD FooD and ... WHAT?? FOOD!!!

2010-10-24T15:48:00.014+08:00

Yep.. this post will be about food... all of us lovesss food... here are some peek of what I had recently.. well... not that recent la.. :D

Went to QB on 17th Oct.. and we *Tasha and me* ate at BREEKS ...

She got herself a spaghetti bolognaise and strawberry + iced tea *i think *

Here's the spaghetti

and

her drink

As for me, I ate Fish *something* LaFayette and some Banana + Apple + Pineapple Smoothies. Forgot the name already ...

Trust me ... the portion is huge... and I help Tasha out with her extra sauce spaghetti .. hehe ...

Few days after this hang out... We went out in search of Tomyam in Sg Ara. Tasha's craving for Tomyam... :D

We had Sotong Kangkung, Tomyam Ayam, Sup Sayur and Sotong Goreng Tepung.

Here they are ...

PS : On the left..it's not fingers.. it's the sotong ok...

Tomyam Ayam

Sup Sayur

Sotong Goreng Tepung

DonE.

Let's Gear Up for 2 Days 1 Night Solo Adventure in Langkawi!

2010-10-18T19:47:00.003+08:00

At last!!! Dapat jugak p balik to the Legendary Island but this time I'm not there to work but to experience the fun and adventures lies within the island. The last time I went to work there, I didn't manage to tour the island as much as I want as my mind is always on work.

So, I want to go back there and have fun with my fellow Tanjung Rhu's employee. Hope they still remember me (^.^) . Anyway, I plan to go on 13th & 14th of November 2010. Not so sure whether some of the guys will come out or not, if not, it's fine for me.

My mom looks worried when I told her that I might goin there alone but hey.. I was alone there for 4 freakin months. I can handle this ^U^ .. Don't worry MIE.

Here are the must stuff that I MUST do in Langkawi :

- Mangrove Tour -> This is one of the most important thing that I really want to try. I've been dying to do this since I first time saw it in the resort activity brochures.

- Cable Car - Yep. Believe it or not, for the whole 4 months in Langkawi, I never been to the Cable Car. Do laugh if you want to.

- Gua Langsuir - If can, I want to go into this cave.

Hmm.. the mangrove tour will likely take about 2-3 hours to finish and usually it will start early in the morning. Wonder if I can make it and I'm not sure whether I can explore The Wailing Banshee Cave.

I also want to go and snorkeling at Pulau Payar. ARRGHHHH!!! So many thing I want to do with so little time. I'm sure I'm not gonna sleep during those 2 days.

Since I'm on a budget trip, I choose to stay at Azio Hotel. I have not confirmed my booking yet but will do so once my leaves has been approved by the manager :D . Heard that Azio hotel is quite good and not that expensive too.

The only problem I'm having right now is to find someone who can teman me for 1 day only, on the 13th November as I'm leaving the next morning. Maybe after the Mangrove tour , I'll rent a car and drive freely. Might want to stop at one of my colleagues place for a visit. Who should I get ....

Any volunteer??

This what happen WHEN....

2010-10-16T20:56:00.007+08:00

Tasha and Maryam went for a jog at Botanical Garden at 7.30 am.

This is what the weather looks like, after several hike up the hill.

After an hour or so... we have to leave .. why??

Because it started to rain heavily. So, we left the place. After several meters away.... guess what happen ....

The rain STOPPED!!

Just after we leave. Maybe , even the garden was shocked that both of us actually got up early in the morning and jog there.

~The ENd~

HTC Legend and Raya

2010-09-05T18:44:00.002+08:00

hahaha ... bila pikiaq balik ... apa la kaitannya HTC Lgend and Raya ...

Actually .. I'm not interested in Nokia N97 mini dah ... skarang cinta hati baru is HTC Legend ..... cukup minat ... ahaha ... sib baik aku tk beli N97 Mini .. klu tak maw menangis aku sbb top up a bit only can get HTC Legend .. Aku dah belek2 .. dgq review .. should go for HTC Desire coz top up some amount you get a better processor... but the things is .. I don't like the color of it .. what i heard .. they do have in Silver color but not sure whether HTC have create one yet ... well... if Desire comes with silve or white ... I'm definitely gonna get it and forget about the Legend .. ahahah..

As for Raya , I just bought a plain white and black baju kurung today .. it's quite cheap and I really like how simple the design is ... tk la berat mata aku memandang .. ahahah .. This year Raya , I didn't bake much ... seriously ... this year raya .. mcm lack of something .. mood tu ntah p mana .. maybe sbb aku kena bawak kluaq duit kot .. ahahaha ... I just help my mom with the kuih only .. so this year, no kuih battle with my mom ... :(

Study ~ KYAAAA~~~ EXCITED!!!

2010-08-28T16:33:00.002+08:00

When thinking bout to continue my studies really HYPE me up .. I really really enjoy myself as a student .. maybe not as the wild one .. but hey .. I enjoyed it ..

So, recently I have been browsing several IPTA and IPTS online ... thinking which course should I take ... thought of taking Business and stuff .. but when I look at the syllabus and courses .... The topic are all DRY!!!! Totally theory .. I can't stand theory soo much ... I'm not good in memorizing straight from the books .. I think I can't take that course ... I'll be sleeping all time in the class... Look what happened to all my management subjects during my diploma ... boring ... thanks to some of the lecturers who managed to make it interesting .. Mr. Lai and Ms Karen .. Kudos to you ! Your classes is not boring .. same goes to Ms Su....

I think I should stick to my Tourism thingy .. even though currently I'm working in Dell ... I still loves my Tourism course .. maybe it's not my rezeki for now ... Coz if I continue my degree with tourism , i might be able to go straight to 2nd year .. save time .. wahahaa ...

Besides ... haihh ... forgot what I want to say already .. anyway ... is there are any good colleges out there.. do give me some info .. might want to enroll under International Business or Tourism.... :D

Bilik ada hantu????

2010-08-15T20:37:00.002+08:00

hahaha ... nie bapak aku yg gtau aku ... dia kata bilik aku ada hantu lps dia repair akunya power socket yg berminggu rosak .. kikiki .. rasanya ... klu btoi ada pun ... tk yah risau la .. should be sebati dgn aku ...wahahhaaa.....

Beginning of Ramadhan

2010-08-09T17:48:00.002+08:00

Ramadhan is almost here~~~~
I'll tell you ... klu tak dak calendar pun aku taw nk posa dah .. taw mcm mana?? Aku tgk mak aku ja ... bkn sbb mak aku punya muka ada bulan .. tp sbb klu mak aku bawak balik pekakas dapoq from kedai ... time tu la nk dkt posa ... sbb bulan posa mak aku cuti .. waaaaa... best .. hari2 leh mkn makanan yg mak aku masak... gemuk la sebulan nie .. hahahah ... ok la tu .. sbb sepanjang tahun jarang aku dapat rasa masakan mak aku full course ... so time bulan posa nie ... hentam la.. wahahha ....

Aku rasa nk tambah liplap skit blog nie.. nak raya la katakan ... This year aku tak taw nk mintak cuti raya bila .. tp for sure kena mintak by this week .. so kena plan2 ...

Time2 posa nie aku igt nk bawak famili aku jalan2 ... tp kat mana ahh .. family aku tak la besaq sgt tp klu nk ditanggung kos perjalanan untuk 7 org plus makan ... maw rentung gaji aku .... hahaha ... bukan tak ikhlas tp berjimat cermat ... kekeke .. maybe just bawak depa p ronda2 some place or book a buffet time bukak posa at some hotels .. activity nie jarang aku buat .. tahun nie kena buat la .. br best ...

Ckp pasai nak raya ... aku dah dok risau .. hahahha ... semua org taw aku dah kerja and skarang blh dikatakan kebanyakkan sepupu-sepupu kecik aku pun dah pandai tanya aku keja ka belum .. nie .. semua dok bg hint macam kena bagi duit raya ja .. adoihh .. takkan aku nk kena OT gak kot posa nie sebab duit raya punya pasai .. hahah ... tak pa2 .. kita bg ja yg termampu ... tp .. laa nie .. budak2 jgn main la .. depa dah pandai mintak up dgn cara meng-condemn-kan si penderma .. sebagai contoh ... "Apa la .. bg singgit ja .. baik tak yah bagi..", please bear in mind that this is true story nahh ... bukan rekaan .. sbb apa .. klu aku jadi budak pun ... aku nnt ckp benda yg sama ... wahahaha .. btoi tak?? klu bg singgit ... boleh beli ice cream ja pun ... apa lagi .. staioneries ? and some other cheap stuff... tp klu yg dok kat rumah flat tu best la ... klu 1 tingkat ada 20 family, 5 tingkat dah ada 100 fanily ... 1 blok maw dapat RM100.. cuma p 5 blok .. maw RM500 waaaa ... seronok tu ... ckp sepuluj blok .. leh goyang kaki .. wahahaha ... maybe tak semua penghuni rumah pangsa tu Muslims but nowadays... most of the family are quite open .. sometime non-Muslims also bagi some duit raya .. so .. klu ada rumah aci2 tu ... jgn la skip .. buat ja muka kanak2 anda dan mintak je .. ckp je nk raya ... hhahahhaa...

Banyak plak aku nk merepek hari nie .. tak padan ngn demam ... hahha ... anyway .. my dad is on his way to establish his mew business again .. hehe .. klu nk kira dah belambak business dia buat .. but the current one that his working on right now is not that bad ... so let's give some help and a lottttt of FIGHTING spirits to him~~ FIGHTING!!! :D

Before I leave .. let's layan new song from SHINEE - Lucifer

Traditional vs Modern

2010-08-08T16:25:00.002+08:00

My mom just informed me yesterday that she want me to plan what I want to bake for this coming raya .. she will do some traditional Malaysian kuih such as putu beras and putu kacang *my fav*, bahulu , and some other types that I forgot the names but taste delicious..

Which means, she wants me to make something modern so we will have some kind of cookies war between the cookie jars.. hahahha .... the coffee table will definitely full this year ... For sure, I'm not gonna make the same cookies as last year .. let me show you what I make last year ...

some of it my mom bake, some of it mine

2 in 1

2010-08-07T23:28:00.005+08:00

... let's start straight away with the first story ..

A Belated Birthday Celebration

This is on 5th of August if I'm not mistaken ... I was concentrating on my work and I actually saw a cake with 2 candles on top at my colleagues desk ... even though my 'kaypo-ness' and curiosity increase ... but I just ignore it and continue with my work.. *it's weird right for maryam to not kaypo at that type of things-well, that's me at work place*.

All of the sudden, my colleagues surround me and bring the cake together.With my blur face... I said , "It's not my birthday, who's birthday are you celebrating?", she just laugh and said , "Your's la.. it's a belated celebration " ---- well, she actually said something like this as I can't really remember what the exact thing she said.. After singing and candle-blowing session, they cut the cake and we distribute it ...

If you want to know how many slice of cake I ate that day within 4 hours? The answer is 2 slice .. 1 cheesecake and 1 chocolate cake .. now you know why there's a lot of fleshes and fatness in me .. hahahhaa .... ALright, back to the birthday celebration . After we ate the cake , a colleague of mine drop a card to me ... I didn't open on the spot *i dont want people to see my reaction .. hehe*, instead I opened it at home .. Let me show you what my colleagues give me ..

The Card

The Inside

Thanks guys!! Really like it!!

Eternal
Me and Tasha went to QB today .. as usually ... we walk and walk and walk like always .. we went to the Borders to check out some books .. I went to the vampire section and there's 2 books caught my eyes .. one is 'HUSH HUSH' and the other one is Eternal ... really wanted to buy both of them but too bad .. limited budget .. it's not like no money or what .. but the expression of Tasha when I told her that I need to go to ATM ... that's scary .. hahahha... so .. with the help of tasha, I bought the Eternal one .. haven't start reading it yet but .. gonna start soon ....

Oh .. by the way .. Tiqah will be flying back to India tomorrow morning ... WISH YOU ALL THE BEST GIRL!! GET SOME GUYS FROM THERE AND I'LL TRY TO GET SOME HERE ... hahaha ...

Here's a picture of the Eternal novel that I bought ...

Let me give you a classified ads from this book..

Classified Ads
Wanted : Personal Assistance to Royal Highness
Duties : Whatever is asked:without hesitation:
including secretarial and administrative:household:defense:
blood donation:driving:prey disposal: love slavery:

Love at First Sight ~~

2010-08-01T01:10:00.006+08:00

The post title definitely not about guys. It's not that I like the same species but it's more to mobile phone. If you want to know how many love at first sight I had~~ my answer is COUNTLESS . So, in my diary, there's no such thing as love at first sight as there are tooooooo many gorgeous guys out there that can wipe my feet of the ground with their looks.

Alright, back to this love at first sight of mine. It's been a while I wanted to change my phone, so I started to review all those phone online but trust me.. those phone does not look nice through photo. You need to get your ass to the counter and check it for yourself.

Well, I'm the type which damn lazy to check the phone at the retailers. So today, Tasha accompany me to check them out. I had my eyes on Nokia N97 mini since the first time I step my foot in one of this mobile phone shop in Gurney Plaza. I seriously like this shit because I rarely go for mobile phone shopping as I'm practically not totally interested in them. As long my current phone can call out and in, sms, got alarm working is fine for me. Please note that I'm currently using Nokia 1600 which is not mine. My previous phone can't be use before I moved to Langkawi, so I just took my brother's phone which had been passed by my grandmother.

I've been thinking for weeks whether I should buy this N97 mini or SE Vivaz Pro. However, I have to get rid of the Vivaz Pro as Tiqah already bought them. Thank god I'm more interested in the Nokia one. If not, we will have the same phone. It's not weird to have the same phone, it's just that I want to be different at least among the close friends. So today, I made up my mind and I will buy N97 mini on September.

At first, I'm quite scared on Nokia because some of it model's cover looks like it made from plastic. So that's why I want to go for SE but after all the reviewing today, his Nokia N97 mini is as sturdy as the previous generation of Nokia *the one that if you throw it hard, it won't spoil*. I actually read a review on this, that's how I know it.

After gave it a serious thought, that's it . I'm gonna get this baby.

But, when I told my mom bout this. She's not that happy as she want me to save my money for the house that we planned to purchase. When she heard the price of the phone is RM1k ++, her face changed. I know what she's thinking, so I quickly told her that once I buy this phone, no more phone changing. A while later, she came to me and actually support me to buy the phone as i'm the one using my money to pay it. I told her that she don't have to worry bout the RM1k that I promise to keep every month because I'll pay the phone using my OT money and a small part of my salary. Case closed.

Despite my excitement to save money and buy this mini, I still managed to go for some online shopping this week. I actually hate shopping as in literally go to the mall, waste time and shop for nothing. If I wanted to shop at the mall, I'll make sure I know what I want and straight away buy it. Save time, save your friend energy level & hungry level :D .

Here are some items that I already bought this week and the item that I plan to buy.

Foot Detox Patch x 20pcs

Charcoal Mask x 1

Gonna Buy

Nokia N97 Mini

A BLOODY STUPID IDIOT MORON!!!!

2010-07-01T22:09:00.004+08:00

Nie .. aku nk gtau... nasib baik aku punya nasib tk malang gila pagi nie.. td pagi aku nk p keja... seperti biasa, aku nk masuk tmpt parking near to my workplace.... aku bg la signal kanan... and tgg keta kurang coz parking spot aku tu at the other side of the road.. when everything clear.. aku pun apa lagi.. masuk kanan la nak park... OUT OF NOWHERE... there's this bloody stupid IDIOT guy on a bike with his gf, dgn lajunya lalu belah kanan aku and elak... bodoh ka tk bodoh???? aku nya signal kanan tu dok menyala punya lama... tkkan tak nmpk kot... buta ka apa... ALMOST ACCIDENT WAE....

nk dijadikan cita, lps dia jalan lps keta aku, dia pusing belakang and realize yg the driver is girl... celaka punya tak celaka... dia p patah balik mai kat aku konon2nya nk sound la .... siap jege kat aku and sound "Tak nmpk ka org lalu???" ... silap byk aahhh... dia igt aku kia ngat ngn dia... igt aku nk 'sorry sorry bang'.. excuse me you bloody idiot... you're at fault ok... not me .. I just told him... hg tak nampak ka lampu signal kanan aku dok menyala punya lama.. yg hg lalu gak pasai pa... after sometime time of 'jege' at me, he left... what A BLOODY STUPID IDIOT MORON!!! For those people out there... if you want to maki or sound or buat juah ngan org lain... make sure you did not do anything wrong... if not... angkat stand moto.. blah ja la...

ada nk buat jora ngan aku .. sorry aahh... mat2 mcm hg, tk layak nk maki aku... well.. maybe nk tjk kat gf dia kot yg bfnya ini berani.. nk sound org yg telah membahayakan nyawa kekasihnya itu... pooodaahhhh!!!!! nk cari pasai pun ngan pompuan.. jantan apa wae??? malay guy always like that ka???? if yes.. i wont be marrying that kind of guy... prefer to be andartu pun tak pa... AAARRRGHHHHH!!!! menyampah gila... the thing yg aku plg tk leh blah is that dia notice a girl yg bawak .. dan dan nk patah balik sedangkan it's his fault.... if at that time dia ajak gaduh pun.. gaduh p ahh.... aku mmg lama tk test power... kisah apa aku dia laki ka apa ka.. klu dah buat lebih2 ngat ngn aku.. siap hg...

Rancangan Makanan Tambahan @RMT@

2010-06-24T21:17:00.007+08:00

Hi Kengkawan... hahaha.. so weird ..

Ingat tak time skolah rendah dulu ada program makanan tambahan utk budak2 yg konon2nya tk berkemampuan la... Aku mmg tk dapat... tp ada satu hari tu .. dapat gak tp menyesal.. pasai pa??? Mai aku cita kat hang pa...

Ada sorang member aku nie,dia dapat subscribe RMT tu. But then , satu hari tu dia tak mai.. so.. dianya pass makanan tambahan tu di-auction-kan la... apa lagi.. satu kelas mula membida.. termasuk aku .. mana taknya .. pass yg di-auction-kan tu mengandungi sekotak susu coklat *brand apa tak tau tp ada gambaq budak2 skolah kat kotak dia* , sepinggan nasi lemak dan buah.

Lps item2 itu dinyatakan.. cikgu pun mulakan lelong haram tu.. tp bukan dgn duit .. tp nk taw sapa yg tk berkemampuan.. aku pun bertekad nk dapat pass tu.. bukan apa.. teringin .. time budak2 dulukan, bila tgk org pgg pass tu.. rasa mcm depa spesyel ja.. aku pun nk spesyel gak ...

Semua org pun buat la cerita sedih depa.. tp akhirnya dapat 2 finalis... aku ngan sorang budak nie ... budak tu cerita dulu ... dia kata mak dia bukak kedai makan.. then org semua kata kenyang la hg .. tk yah amk pass tu la... aku pulak dok pikiaq "Alamak, mak aku pun bukak kedai makan, stgi tk dapat plak.. bohong ja la." and guess apa yg aku tipu ... aku kata macam nie dgn nada kesian + sedih, "Mak saya bukak kedai ayaq ja cikgu, untung tk byk mana. Hari2 kluaq awai, kdg2 saya tk sempat makan pagi ngn tgh hari pun. Tambah pulak , adik beradik saya byk."-- Please take note bahawa time nie aku darjah 2. Hanya ada aku ngan Dolah jaa... kikikiki ...

Apalagi... aku dapat la pass tu .. muahahaha ... happy tk sudah aku lps dapat pgg pass tu .. Time rehat, aku dgn bangganya menyerahkan pass tu kat mak cik kantin... tetapi .. kebahagiaan aku tk berpanjangan .. igtkan dah dpt pass nie ..makanan byk skit la sbb org tk berkemampuanla kan .. tgk2 .. dia bg aku nasi lemak atas piring kecik tu .. klu nasi betimbun tak pa .. nie sama lepiaq ngn pinggan tu .. imagine 1 rice grain di susun atas pinggan... 1 layer ja .. then atas in the center sejemput sambal ngan ikan bilis ... tehina aku rasa ..

Walaupun aku bukan penerima pass yg tetap, depa tk ptt buat macam tu .. taw la nk jimat .. business la konon ... pigidah ... nie kes naya ... cuba bg anak depa mkn mcm tu hari2 ... nk ka anak depa makan ?? taw pun takmau... Lps tu, walaupun member aku bg free pass tu pun aku tk maw.. sebab apa?? hehe .. mak aku bg bekai lg mewah dari tu .. muahahha .. walaupun tk la mewah mana ... Meh aku gtau apa yg mak aku bg for my lunches every single day ....

Mak aku simpan makanan aku dalam tupperware ice cream, tp awas bukan tupperware ice-cream yg halus tu nah.. yg beeesaaaaqqqqq punya ... hahahah ... yg 1 family leh mkn tu .... Dalam tu, mesti ada Nasi Lemak, Kuih Standard 3 jenis - karipap, donut and apom pink tu. Ayaq plak , mak aku bg Dutch Lady nya susu.. hari2 lain jenis .. Walaupun dibekalkan makanan tu.. duit poket mesti bagi .. time nie la aku rasa betuahnyaa badan. :D

Kiah Dah Start Menge-TAG aku dahhh....

2010-06-23T16:23:00.002+08:00

Tak taw la pasai pa dia tiba2 bersemangat nk tag2 nie... tak pa.. Kiah punya pasai .. aku buat ja...

[Pic nie stg blk aku boh... malas..]

1: ape yg bermain difikiran anda skrg nie??

nk tekencing ... kat tmpt keja nie.. sejuk...

2: apakah name samaran anda?

Skarang - Ary,Ry-Chan,Maryam,Mary,Cik Kiah---Luke punya pasai nie,Yam,Nur,Raja.
Time kecik2 dulu -- Canon and Dalsim ...

3: berikan 3 org yg anda syg?

Mana cukup 3, aku ada lapan... Top 3 are Mak , Abah, Aku..... hiihhihih....

4: panggilan utk si dia?

U mean Reita??? hahahaha....

5: hadiah yg anda impikan dr seseorang yg istimewa?

awat soalan nie?? beli sendiri la hadiah tu.. nk impi2 plak... confirm tkkan dpt.. hahahaha....

6: blog manakah yg anda suka lawati?

Blog2 yg mengandungi info2 ttg KPOP industry, Paranormal Investigation ... lagi?? byk sgt la.. *tp sebenarnya... aku bukan rajin baca blog pun..hihihi*

7: tagkan kpd 10 rakan anda:

I only have myself... what for hantaq kat org??? klu aku hantaq kat Tasha.. sure dia maki aku.. kan tasha kan.. kiah bertindak bijak dgn tidak menge-tag tasha..

T.O.P MV is just...... too bland... (-_-") disappointed --- 2NE1 JANG!!!!!

2010-06-22T20:37:00.004+08:00

Just watched T.O.P of Bigbang new MV. I don't know why but it's like a wannabe type of MV. Plus... haihhhh... YG and TOP can do better than that.. where all the creativity goes??

Those who wanted to watch the video... here it is...

Despite the frustration occurred, here's some 2NE1 - Try To Follow Me MV. Salute to 2NE1 for not following those girl groups which currently in the Dark & Black trend with too much skin expose . 2NE1 --------- JANGGGG~~~~!!!!!

The Chosen One

2010-06-20T22:28:00.006+08:00

First thing first... this post is not bout guy ... It's bout my fave past pictures.. there's a lot.. but i just choose a few of it ...

Nie la akibatnya when u have nothing to do .. belek brg lama la.. so drpd belek kosong, aku pun pilih yg mana aku suka... So here the CHOSEN ONE... :D

This is the last piece of cake for Emee's birthday. If i'm not mistaken it's in the year of 2007. We held the birthday party at The Sushi King Sunway Pyramid where we stuffed ourself to happiness.. u guys know how it likes right when there are dozens of food moving on the belts and the freedom of your hand to pick it and eat it... IT'S ECSTASY!!! However, even though all of us had a taste of the cake.. this last piece picture really make me drooling.. thank god it's not fasting month...

Next on the list is.............

This is the waffle with ice creamthat i had during our class gathering at Haagen-Dazs. The waffle is great.. crunchy.. just the way i like it.. I don't like the taste of soft waffle.. it gives me the feeling of 'kembang' in my mouth. One thing for sure, I LOVE THEIR ICE CREAM!! You can't stop loving them.. If you ask me which ice cream I prefer between Haagen-Dasz and Baskin Robbins, my vote goes to Haagen-Dasz. Baskin Robbins is too sweet for me ...

This meal is where I had in the plane from Kuala Lumpur to Bangkok by Lufthansa Airline. It's actually one of the coldest meals I ever had*minus the ice cream please*.. I mean, can't they heat it up before sent it out.. anyway.. that's just my opinion.. Anyway, despite the coldness... aku blasah gak.. hungry man...

As for this picture, it's our CF of promoting the drinks which quite delicious for us.. it's range from milk to chocolate and to juices .. I think it's a local Thailand's brand since I can't find it in Malaysia. If you ever go to the Grand Palace in Bangkok.. buy this drink .. it's nice.. If you see a non moving soldier, the stall is around there....

So these are my fav picture so far... i think i like it because it's all food and drinks... hahaha.. what can i do .. I'm a FOOD LOVER~~~

Adik Aku Terkena Penangan Korea

2010-06-12T21:31:00.004+08:00

Great.. my mom dah start geleng kepala dah. Mana taknya , cukup la sorang anak dara dia nie dok gila kat korea tu. Tup tup, dia dah influence adik dia. *Nie aku tgh tulis blog depan wawan, dia baca and ckp aaahhh.. kita dua org la tu , means that bukan aku ja yg minat korea, dia skali.

Meh aku gtau group mana dia minat. Paling feveret BEAST, aku tk influence dia yg nie, dia yg bekenan. NNt klu BEAST turun Malaysia, habis la aku. Second, dia minat Super Junior. Especially lagu baru tu, BONAMANA. Third, dia minat UKISS. Nasib baik dia tk taw UKISS nk turun padang, klu tak , abeh la aku skali lagi. Fourth, dia minat ZE:A. Nie ada additional group, dia br ja bgtau aku. Dia nk suruh aku tambah satu lg group. 2PM!!!

Pening aku , tp tak pa.. aku ada geng nk control tv.. hahahaha....

Judgement DAY.... for my hair... ''0''

2010-06-11T11:32:00.002+08:00

This blog so sunyi one aaa..... kesian.. kena abandon for quite sometime...

Well... not anymore..........

After all this waiting, let me tell you what will happen tomorrow..

On 2.00pm tomorrow, my hair's nightmare will become reality. While it's shivering keseorangan smpi jd frizzy, I'm more than happy to have a new haircut.

Klu tk salah , dah berbulan nk ptg. Tp tk ptg2 gak...

Tu la.. NATO maa.... No Action , Talk Only....

Phrase tu Pak Cik Daryl la yg bgtu kat aku...

Hope it turn out well. Nie dok belek what hairstyle nk ptg....

Heading back to Penang!!

2010-01-04T05:02:00.002+08:00

Well... dah berabuk dah blog aku nie.. anyway.. aku nk gtau yg aku nk blk penang dah..

1st activity in Penang is...........................................

MAKAN SUSHI!!!!!!!!!!

God!!!! How i miss that thing in Langkawi..

anyway... by end of this month i'll be there... study??? work??? hmm... what about both??? sounds tiring??? can i cope it??? Hell YEAHHHH!!!!

ps: tgh tak dak keja time2 shift mlm.. tgg corress tk mai2 lagi..

Occupied

2009-10-03T10:19:00.001+08:00

I'm quite occupied this few days.. need to make some arrangement for tomorrow.. haihhh.. wish me luck.... :)

Haircut!!!

2009-09-18T22:00:00.001+08:00

Date : 18th September 2009

Time : 2201

I WANT TO CUT MY HAIR SHORT !!! PERIOD!!!

The List

2009-09-13T20:51:00.008+08:00

Date : 13th of September 2009

Time : 2058

Guess what... at last ... i managed to choose on which items i need to buy and which items i need to put it on hold... Well... here's the BRAND NEW LIST~~

I'm gonna buy ...

Taiwan Puliama Crystal Rice Facial Foam

Rose Beauty Moisturiser

ICEGIRL Miracle White & Reddish Red Dates Mud Mask

Taiwan Puliama Pure Natural Invisible Mask- coral water

Luxurious Perfume Whitening Body Lotion

Korea Full Body Whitening Shower Cream

There .. I'm done and all this cost me around RM130 ... manage to squeeze in between the budget.. lucky me... hehe .. but .. they told me that i might be able to purchase a strongly recommended comb which can comb away all the fuzziness of the hair.. but it will cost me around Rm 1xx for that... hmm... should i use that hundred plus for my raya hair or i should just purchase the comb for long term... i think i might buy that comb ....

P/S : I want to cut my hair this coming weekend.. Tasha .. jom wae.... rambut aku dah meliaq dah...

Gonna Start Baking This Weekend!!!

2009-09-10T20:50:00.005+08:00

Date : 10th of September 2009

Time : 2051

I'm DAMN EXCITED to write this post.. just because i'm going to celebrate Raya soon and gonna do some baking session starting this weekend .. PLUS +++++..... My aunty just came back from Aussie and of course I'm gonna show her some of my baking skills which have been covered with dusts and spider webs for a looooooooongggg time...

I'm gonna list out several type of kuih or cookies that i'm gonna bake this coming Raya... as usual .. my mind is filled with a lot of kuih to bake but my hand is not capable to do it all.. kikiki .. limited skills.. ok.. here's the list ....

Maryam's Kuih Raya Selection for 2009

Almond London **A must

Pineapple tart a.k.a tat nenas

Rich Chocolate Cupcake in Ice Cream Cone

Amos Biscuit

Arab Biscuit aka biskut arab

Cornflakes Cookies Variety - Choc or Honey

Kuih Sarang Semut a.k.a Anthill Cookies

Well... that's all.. i think it's enough .. Can't wait to go and shop with my mom this Saturday ... There will be a lot of stuff to carry back home.. YEEAYYYYYYYY!!!!

p/s : I hope the new cupcake in cone recipe will turn out great...

Stuff to Buy before fly to The Whole New World!!

2009-09-05T09:14:00.023+08:00

Date : 5th September 2009

Time : 0920

Morning!!! I just woke up and just on my laptop to submit the to buy post.... kikiki ... Why?? it's not to brag ok.... but just as reminder for me... Why again? Because I saw this online thread in some of those forum and found out they have a lot of beauty stuff and the price is damn affordable... Most of the products they sell is from Japan, Korea, Taiwan and US... So, i've been thinking to try out these stuff and test whether it suits my skin or not... you know la why... my skin is malay skin maa.... those products plak mainly use by chinese girls... different right?? So i'll be a guinea pig ... ikiki... i wonder ... what does those chinese girls means by their skin is whiter and fairer after wearing this and this products because they already white or fair... hmmm.....

Anyway, i don't care... i'll be listing those items that i might buy before fly to Langkawi... The list might be long because i haven't decide on which one I WANT to buy but more to what i like.... have to do this you know... list the probabilities and then went to the second phase to select the item that i really need to buy... have to be within budget maa.. no more parent funding after this *tsk T_T tsk* .. these item that i 'm going to list also i need to buy it with my 1 month and a half salary and with that money also, i have to support myself for the next 1 month in langkawi before getting my first pay there... OH GOD!! When i type that just now, i just realize that I can't buy more stuff.....

UUUUUUUWWWWWWWWWWAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA !!!!!!!

Haihhh.... now ahh.. i'm worried bout my spending style when I'm in Langkawi... huhuhu....

Ahhhhh!!! Cut the crap... Here's the list---:

Face Mask

X.O Red Wine Mask

**Can I wear this?? but it's only for the health of the face, i didnt drink it...

i think i should consult someone on this...

Wild Rose Arousing Comfortable Mask

ICEGIRL Miracle White & Reddish Red Dates Mud Mask

Taiwan Puliama Pure Natural Invisible Mask

Lavender - Moisturising

Eye Mask

24-K Active Gold Eye Mask with Botanical Essence

Bamboo Salt Eye Mask

Lip Mask

Crystal Lip Mask

Facial Foam

Taiwan Puliama Crystal Rice facial Foam

Moisturizer

SHILLS Intensive Moisturizing Cream

Toner

Euphrasy Toner

Body Lotion

Luxurious Perfume Whitening Body Lotion

Shower Cream

Korea Full Body Whitening Shower Cream

Slimming Purposes

Balo Chilli Slimming Gel

La Eau Legs Slimming Socks

3 in 1 Butterfly Pad

For slimming purpose.

Underarm

STATEMENT

I know you all noticed a lot of slimmng stuff and YESS!!! I do want to be slim.. why?? i'm not confident bout myself??? nope.. I'm confident bout myself but most of the dresses and shirts that i like don't come in my size... frustrating right... in my wardrobe , there are lots of stuff that i couldn't wear.. sad.. and yepp.... i sweat ... A LOT!! so this underarm pads will come in pretty handy... Oh yeah.. there are lots of whitening stuff too.. i want my skin tone to be more fairer like before.. my skin became burnout when i started send and pick my brother from school... i walk .. not drive... anyway.. if i want all the items above.. i already calculated it and it will cost me ....

RM 215.60!!!!!

Ermmm... looks like i can't buy all though... need to select wisely... if not.. pokai le...

P/S : If there are anybody out there that can help we choosing this stuff, i would be glad to have you guys as friends.... heeee....

I'm a hot sex addict with a sexy smile who smoked with an orange because the lil people told me to.

2009-09-03T19:12:00.003+08:00

WHAT KIND OF STATEMENT IS THAT!!!

I'm BACK. Well, it's because Tasha tagged me , so here i am...

First, add “I’m a/an” on your title, then add the rest of the answers on as you do the questions.

What color/kind of socks are you wearing?

[ ] Red = loud
[ ] Green = stupid
[ ] None = freaky
[ ] Fuzzy = gorgeous
[ ] Yellow = innocent
[ ] Purple = a little too happy
[ ] Black = emo
[ ] Stripes = funny
[ ] Gray = skanky
[ ] Pink = preppy
[ ] Light blue = sweety
[x] Other = hot
[ ] White = sexy

What kind of pants are you wearing?

[ ] Shorts = cutie
[ ]Skirt/skort = skank
[ ]Corduroy = faggot homosexual
[ ]Tight jeans = scene kid
[ ]Ripped jeans = emo
[ ]Cammo = cage fighter
[ ]Jeans = prep
[ ]Pajamas = pimp
[ ]Cargo = clown
[ ]Sweats = athlete
[]Boxers = brat
[ ]Booty shorts = female
[ ]Capris = Gangster
[ ]Nothing = hoe
[ ]Dickies = weirdo
[ ]Bikini bottoms = tiki girl
[x]Other = sex addict

What is your natural hair color?

[ ]Auburn = that every one wants to make out with
[ ]Blonde = with a broken heart
[x]Black = with a sexy smile
[ ]Dark brown = with a hot boyfriend/girlfriend
[ ]Red = that likes to have fun
[ ]Brown = who loves to be different
[ ]Dirty blonde= with a nice ass
[ ]Bald = with herpes

Pick the month you were born on:

[ ]1 = who ate
[ ]2 = who needed
[ ]3 = who killed
[ ]4 = who shot
[]5 = who killed
[ ]6 = who banged
[x]7 = who smoked with
[ ]8 = who ran shirtless with
[ ]9 = who got stabbed horribly by
[ ]10 = who cuddled with
[ ]11 = who slept with
[ ]12 = who ran naked with

Pick the day you were born on:

[ ]01 = the kool-aid man
[ ]02 = a dog
[ ]03 = a shoe
[ ]04 = a toothbrush
[ ]05 = Santa Claus
[ ]06 = my ex-es
[ ]07 = a prostitute
[ ]08 = The Trojan man
[ ]09 = a porn star
[ ]10 = a bag of weed
[ ]11 = my lover
[ ]12 = a glass of milk
[ ]13 = a horse
[ ]14 = a lesbian
[ ]15 = a stripper
[ ]16 = a pickle
[ ]17 = a jew
[ ]18 = a homo
[x]19 = an orange
[]20 = my mom
[ ]21 = a homeless guy
[ ]22 = a whore
[ ]23 = my crush
[ ]24 = an easter egg
[ ]25 = a jar of honey
[ ]26 = a condom
[ ]27 = a bowl of cereal
[ ]28 = a french fry
[ ]29 = your dealer
[ ]30 = Paris Hilton
[ ]31 = your grandma

Pick the color of the shirt you are wearing

[ ]White = because I love marijuana
[ ]Black = because I’m sexy as hell
[x]Pink = Because the lil people told me to
[ ]Blue = because I have AMAZING boobs
[ ]Red = because I’m a pimp and your jealous
[ ]Polka Dots = because I hate my life
[ ]Purple = because I’m gay
[ ]Gray = because I got dare
[ ]Other = because that’s how I role
[ ]Green = because I’m good in bed
[ ]Orange = because I smoke crack
[ ]Turquoise = because I have a noodle in my nose
[]Brown = because I had to
[ ]Shirtless = because I’ve got abs

p/s : this is weird.... 0.0

.::Maryam's WISHES::.

2009-08-24T21:29:00.003+08:00

Date : 24th of August 2009

Time : 2130

NEVER BEEN PUBLISHED BEFORE....

MARYAM'S WISHLIST.!!!

I just noticed that i haven't post anything on what i want.. well, since i'm working right now, there are lots of plans in my head on what i'm gonna do with my first pay cheque. I will only receive half of my salary since I just started working last week. So, i might receive around RM500 plus.. i'm just an account clerk man.. what do you expect... Well, here goes my wishlist.

Once I received my first HARD EARN SALARY, I will :

Take away RM 100 for savings. - Invest in Beauty Product. kikiki..

Take away RM 150 to buy new stock for my BLOGSHOP. - Pending

Belanja my family and friends. - Done. For evidences, please refer to Tasha

What I want to have and to be in 10 years time?

A double storey house.

Several cars.

Establish my business.

Get more money.

Support my family.

HUSBAND?? i don't think soo.. seriously.. I just realize that I'm a workaholic...

I want those who peleceh me, get a heart attack due to my success.. kikiki

I want my whole family go for a vacation frequently.

I WANT TO SUPPORT MY BROTHER AND SISTERS TO COLLEGE!!

I want my mom and dad to rest~

Well, i'll update this list when i have something in mind.

Selamat Menyambut Bulan Ramadhan Al-Mubarak~

2009-08-23T18:38:00.007+08:00

Date : 23rd August 2009

Time : 1911

SELAMAT MENYAMBUT RAMADHAN~~

I know it's a bit late but hey.. it's just the second day of PUASA. Anyway, it's almost bukak puasa time and I just browsing through the nets and found some cute cupcakes .. teeheee.. I wish I can make one as cute as in the pictures.. Well, savour your eyes with these super cute CUPCAKES!!

AREN'T THEY CUTE?? I BET EACH ONE OF THEM TASTE VERY DELICIOUS.

I'M GONNA MAKE SOMETHING LIKE THAT IN THE FUTURE~~

Blog Construction COMPLETE.

2009-08-23T14:49:00.004+08:00

Date : 23rd of August 2009

Time : 1450

At last, after hours of hours searching , i found one. Can't really run from black and red . I'm sooo addictive towards these two colours. One thing I notice bout my blog.. There are very few widgets.. hihi.. maybe i'll add up later.. but for now... just this... ^^

Under construction!!

2009-08-22T12:30:00.002+08:00

It's been a while i didnt do anything to this personal blog of mine...

Starting from today, I'll change all....

JOB OFFER!!! I GOT IT!!

2009-08-22T11:57:00.002+08:00

Date : 22nd of August 2009

Time : 1158

Hello THERE!!! Guess what, I'm an account clerk until this 30th of September 2009 and on 5th of October 2009.... I'll be GUEST COMMUNICATION OFFICER in Tanjung Rhu Resort in Langkawi!!!

Alhamdulillah.. I actually suppose to start to work in Langkawi on 7th of September 2009 but after negotiate with them, I manage to forward my recruitment date to 5th of October. I'm quite relieved coz if on 7th of September I have to be recruit, that means that i have to terminate my contract and have to pay a huge amount of money to the agency.. **I got the account job through agency coz i want to get the customer service position but it's on hold and that's why they offer me to work in Geodis Wilson**.

Anyway, this means that i can still celebrate my RAYA in Penang but I have to pass the convocation day. Quite sad but klu ada rezeki depan mata, baik amik kan... rather than put more money on the convo and get the picture...

I know that a lot of graduate want to have that CONVO picture. But for me, as long as i know how capable i am and how precious i am.. I don't need the CONVO picture to prove to others that I AM A GRADUATED FROM SUNWAY UNIVERSITY COLLEGE. What's the point in getting the picture but your brain does not contain the knowledge that you obtain 3 years back on studies...

Hehehe.. I hope my future is bright and will be fill with wonderful moment, great experience, friends that i can count on, rezeki yg melimpah ruah, happy family, happiness, wealthyniess.. hehehe.. apa laa aku merepek nie....

wheewww.... there's a lot i want to talk bout.. but i cant arrange my words properly due to extreme excitement.... till then...

P/S: Praying for a brighter future , more prosperous future, more healthier future, and more happiniess future.

I'm an account clerk..

2009-08-17T20:53:00.002+08:00

Date : 17th August 2009

Time : 2054

Starting 9 a.m. I AM OFFICIALLY AN ACCOUNT CLERK. Yep, but it temporarily by the way. Today my brain happen to be overload with information and even now, it's still configuring on how to handle and manage my tasks for tomorrow. Trust me, after all the briefing and guidance I received today, i really need to organize myself more. So, i can complete them with less mistakes and be proud of myself. I love the staff there. They were very helpful and easy-going.

Especially Pak Mid, he's funny. Well, i need to do a lot of walking there, it takes a couple of minutes for me to walk to my office. Hope can lose couple of calories there.. hehehe.. a bloated girl like me really need to exercise but what can i do. I'M LAZY. Looks like i have to be like this till the nearest future. hehehe.. but there's one thing i hate bout work. It makes me tired and feel sleepy easily.. not in the office. don't get me wrong.. i'm not the type that like to do nothing.. you give me loads of works and i'll do it silently and as fast as i can without even turn my head left or right. I'm that kind.. and plus.. i don't really ly like when i'm busy.. people ask me this that.. or trying to engage me in a conversation.. i really cant stand that.. when i'm focused.. i'm focused.. dont disturb me..

P/S : don't underestimate the tasks and the jobs of an account clerk.. you really need to do a lot of thing... but i still LOVE being a TICKETING OFFICER. I actually miss it.. :(

Should I wear this??

2009-08-16T22:40:00.002+08:00

Date : 16th of August 2009

Time : 2241

I'm gonna start my work tomorrow at 9 am. Should I wear baju kurung or just the normal formal wear without the blazer? hmm.. i think i should wear the baju kurung.hihi.. it's formal anyway.. or should i wear my kebaya's top and a black slack pant?

Anyway, i just met tasha just now and spent a lot of time talking... well.. you can say that or gossiping.. hihihi.. or kutuking... kikiki ... i sold the anklets that she ordered that day.. oh yeah.. for the anklets.. you can't find it in the ARX Shop.. I place it somewhere else.. coz the theme is totaly different from the other shop. It's revolve around CUTENESS . that's right... if you still want to see them .. visit here .. ~Cuteness Explosion~

Tasha.. yg ni yg aku nk bgtau hg td... aku lupa.. hihi.. sorry sorry ... otak aku penuh ngn cita lain.. heee .. anyway ... i bought a purple sandal for tomorrow.. hope my dressing code is ok ...

hehe.. gotta sleep now .. sleepy already...

p/s : i'm excited

Long time...

2009-08-14T21:16:00.003+08:00

Date : 14th of August 2009

Time : 2116

It's been a long while i didn't update my blog. Quite busy lately, especially the past two days. I have to rush to KWSP for several times. Weird right, my name is in there but i don't have the membership number. Well, they said that it takes 2 weeks to auto-update then. Well, what do you expect from these G people, even though they can speed things up, they choose not to.

Anyway, starting this Monday, I'll be working at GeodisWilson. A freight company, temporary only since I just have to replace their account clerk. Yep. I type it correctly. ACCOUNT CLERK. I don't want to be moneyless this raya man. So, i just grab what ever jobs that can give me money for the moment. Hehe, by the way, my blogshop running at a very slow slow pace. As in real slow. hehe. maybe i didn't market it properly. I'll work hard.

Even though, I will not be available starting next week, I already planned on what to buy once i receive my salary. kikiki... by the way, eventhough my blogshop running slow, I started to plan to open another 2 .. hahahah.. call me crazy.. but i seem to love this thing.. kikiki.. planning to sell some beauty stuff like mask and others. hihih.. will it work?? need to research more.

Beside that, i didn't get any email from sunway regarding the graduation day. The weird thing is , most of my friends got it. Need to double check with them.

P/S : hope the graduation is not that expensive.

Chandramukhi

2009-08-06T00:04:00.002+08:00

Date : 6th of August 2009

Time : 0004

I just finished watching a Tamil movie called Chandramukhi. This is really one of my favourite Tamil movie. It's a complete set. It contains comedy, horror, action **even though it look fake but hey, the storyline is not bad. Try to watch it with your family and remember to keep an open mind when you watch this movie coz some of it definitely doesn't make sense but it worth to watch.

It's actually quite an old movie and it's a movie that no matter how many time you watch it, you wont feel bored. If any of you want to know the plot of this movie.. visit here.. Chandramukhi Wiki.

P/S : Love it!!

IMPORTANT!!

2009-08-04T21:20:00.002+08:00

Date : 04 August 2009

Time : 2121

DON'T EAT BUAH MATA KUCING WHEN TGH DEMAM!!!!

TRUST ME.. YOU WILL GET WORSE...

not in good shape...

2009-08-03T20:49:00.002+08:00

Date : 3 August 2009

Time : 2050

Lately, i'm occupied for the grand opening of my blogshop.. (hehe.. perasan grand opening), unfortunately i caught by flu and it is not heal until now... really annoying .. it keeps on dripping.. like a water pipe.. this flu actually prevent me from doing a lot of things... y? because every moment i make ... it want to come out.. and trust me.. it's not comfortable at all.... by the way... do visit my blogshop on 8th of August 2009 to get a great 20% discount off your purchase(s)... A.R.X Shop

till then...

p/s : damn sick right now...

Tiqah's Outing

2009-07-29T14:27:00.012+08:00

Date : 29 July 2009

Time : 1430

I have been 'postponing' the entry of my outing with Tiqah's *one of my bestfriend* and now... everything will be up.. I'll be elaborated the activites we had done for the 2 days outing...

26th of July 2009

Tiqah pick me up around 12 pm, well, actually her dad pick me up.. hehe.. i noticed that her dad changed his car. From Proton Perdana to Honda something something... hehe .. but the interrior of the car is very very sleek.. anyway.. forget that...

We arrived in Queensbay several minutes later, we suppose to go to Prangin but I have to meet someone in QB. So we end up hang out in QB. We didn't do much.. we just chit chat.. walk in and out stores while Tiqah is searching for her books, shoes and some other stuff.

We had our lunch at Sushi King!!! at last... it's been ages since i've been in one... fwuhhh... lega rasa.. we ate around 15 plates.. we didn't order the sets or the soup because we trying to taste whatever we haven't taste yet... hehehe.. and it's worth it..... while we were eating... the shop manager inform us that for every 5 plates, we will get 1 plate free on our next visit.. and this free plates applies even to the expensive plate as in the purple plate.. yahoooo..... I LOVE SUSHI KING!

After that... we continue to walk and walk and walk... then .. not long after that... we went to secret recipe... konon2 nk minum ja la.... tup-tup.. tiqah order cake... apa lagi... aku pun order la... kikikiki.. she choose chocolate indulgence and i choose classic cheese.. hehehe... owh.. and she ordered some drink while i drink mix fruit yogurt...

well.. later we went to purchase her sport shoes when her parent came .. then we dine together .. then ... we go back home....

below are the pic then i managed to get ...

p/s : u can see that my mood to type this entry beginning to fade above... for yesterday outing.. i'll post it next time...

This is one of my favourite.. Salmon's Roe

and this... is my favourite snacks.. Green Soy Bean.. it's not a peas ok...

One of Sushi King's new item... it got cheese on it... try dip it into the nitsume and the wasabi..

Me and Tiqah

Tiqah had to chose this since one of her favourite cakes is not available there...

and my Classic Cheese.. the reason I chose this because it looks BIG .. hahaha... it's all about the size..

Our drinks... i forgot what's tiqah's .. but mine is Mixed Fruit Yogurt Shake.. i think.. kikiki...

Tasha.. we purposely took this picture to show it to you...

and this too... hihihi...

Nasi Ayam Penyet... menggundahkan perutku...

2009-07-27T11:01:00.002+08:00

Date : 27 th of July 2009

Time : 1102

Well, i just woke up and found out that my lil bro, Wawan, not going to school today... haihhh... i wish my mom told me earlier ... at least i can continue my long 'morning' sleep. .. i barely get a full night sleeps... don't ask why coz even i don't know the reason...

Anyway, just a while ago, i saw this Blog Resipi on Nasi Ayam Penyet. Menggeletar perut you... nie la masalahnya.. bila dok lapaq and brg tk dk and kerajinan tk dak, meleleh ja ayaq lioq tgk pic tu.. tmbh plak ngn description2 yg diberi.... lg pedihhhhh perut gua cakap sama lu...mana la nk cari nasi ayam penyet kat penang... stg bila dah jmp.. tk sedap, plak lps tu trus boikot tk maw mkn dah.. hihihi.. first time tasting**is it correct?** is important...

P/S: Can't describe the feeling on food in english.. no 'ummpphhh'

Done and S.C.A.R.Y??? hmmm....

2009-07-26T00:59:00.003+08:00

Date : 26th of July 2009

Time : 0100

Alhamdulillah... I managed to settle most of my stuff today... if not.. i will be panicking and start thinking about what i'm gonna do next..

There's something i need to share ... recently ... within this week.. i kept on 'seeing' some movement .. as if 'it' is flashing in front of me... quite fat... it happened twice today .. and the second one i encountered it just minutes ago while typing this entry.. not sure whether it's my eyes or it is really me that sees these thing .. i hope it's just my eyes... i don't want to have a nightmare tonight.. i already plan my dream man!! let me dream that wonderful dream that i already plan..

P/S : need some sleep now.. goin out with Tiqah tomorrow...

Made Up My Mind

2009-07-24T00:09:00.007+08:00

Date : 24th of July 2009

Time : 0014

I made up my mind... tired or being such a pathetic and money-less type of person.. the amount in my bank account is decreasing.. scared to ask money from parent.. want to earn money by myself .. to prove to THEM that i'm not just a girl with a diploma.. i can be more than that.. one day.. i'm gonna buy those high-end cars and gonna make all of your jaws drop til it can drop no more.. this will be my first step in the strange world of .. hehehe .. i bet tasha will kill me coz i didn't state anything here .. rilek na tasha ..

By the way .. tasha .. i might be joining the 'project' of yours .. hehe .. but i need to do something first to get that 'base' .. need to do some extra work .. by the way .. Tiqah already in Penang .. and we will meet up next Tuesday and hang out together after all the time she been absent.. hahahah.. Tasha .. nnt aku amk pic byk2 .. hehe .. and gonna eat byk2 too .. hehe ..

Here are some pic that i snap when i'm in langkawi the other day .. i'm really fat and need to follow a strict diet .. it's looks like my body is not balance .. see it yourself ..

The Proud Eagle of Langkawi

Pulau Rebak - Yacht Club Marina *Exclusive for Membership Only*

This is the hotel's Sand Pool where me and my dad ate the chicken sandwich and 2 cups of coffee on the house coz the 'bartender' or that 'coffeeguy' said that i'm pretty.. hehe .. untung gak kan..

Mkn tk hbs .. nie first time woo .. tanya tasha tgk .. bila maryam mkn kat kenny rogers mst hbs .. tp nie tk abs .. huhu .. rasa rugi gila ..

End of the trip .. after that we went back by ferry ..

P/S : it's quite cheap in Langkawi .. the rented transport is cheap .. we only filled up RM 20 worth of petrol and went ronda-ronda the 3/4 of the island .. it's surely a place for a budget traveller ..

Langkawi

2009-07-22T19:13:00.003+08:00

Date : 22nd July 2009

Time : 1913

It's been a while I'm absent from the world of entries... hehe.. anyway.. I came back from Langkawi yesterday and bought some chocolates for the family.. I won't talk bout my interview session there coz I ruin it and too lazy to describe it in details.. maybe in other entry.. anyway.. I've been eating a lot of chocolate and can't stop... hahaha .. looks like I'm getting more fat in this body of mine..

I think I need to gather all my friends and go for a trip to langkawi. Yesterday, I rent a car for RM 60 for a day and they give me a nissan sentra. It's quite new and in a good condition and their cheap hotel 'besepah'...hahahha... but what I really interested is the mangrove tour, island hopping , snorkelling and scuba dive activities. aarrrghhhh. wish that i can enjoy those with my friends.. it will be great... plus... we can go shopping there.. and if you wanted to tour the whole island, you only need about 1 or 2 days.. seriuosly.. it's a small and not many entertainment there except for the beautiful ecosystem...

p/s : wait for the next entry, got something to talk bout...

Changes..

2009-07-20T23:38:00.002+08:00

I had made a few changes here coz kind a bored with the old layout.. I know... I always change my layout and i dont think each of the layout survive minimum 1-3 months. There are few stuff i want to add in .. so everything is under construction. see ya..

P/S: headin to Langkawi tomorrow.... hopes everything run smoothly ...

3rd Day of Puasa Ganti

2009-07-11T05:29:00.002+08:00

Date : 11th July 2009

Time : 0531

Well, it's the thrid day and I have to cooked for the 'occasion'. hehehe. Anyway, I started cooking for sahur since 2 days ago. So, today will be the third day. Kinda happy to look at the satisfied faces of my mom and my siblings after they ate. Even though I just finished my sahur, I already tthought bout what to cook for tomorrow. I can't be cooking the same dishes can't I? Well, need to dig up all the recipes in the webs.Need to prove to them that I can cook something delicious too.

Today, the menu for the sahur is just a vege soup or sup sayur and Ikan Pekasam. I don't the name for it in English and I don't think there's a name for it either.

Anyway, today will be a hectic day. because I'm gonna clean the house and arrange it in order. hahahha.. yes.. my 'rajinness' mood is back. So, before that mood is gone. Better use it till the max.

woohoooo..!!!

P/S : I'm excited and sleepy.

A Tale of Unemployed Girl

2009-07-06T15:07:00.002+08:00

Date : 6th of July 2009

Time : 1509

Everyday, she faced the same place, same person and same environment. She's too lazy to do her housework because she's not in the *hardworking* mood. She need a job, so she can be active and socialize with people again. She never thought that a jobless person is so pathetic, problematic* and other *tic stuff. She felt useless, she can't just ask money from her parent, after all, she already finished her studies. What does that piece of Diploma for if not to get a better job?? Everywhere she go, people will ask the same bloody question. **Dah keje ke?? ** or in English, **Are you working now?. Even if she didn't leave the house, those people will always ask the same bloody bloody question and this time , they ask her family members.

It's soooooooo annoying. Come on. She don't want to get just a random job like cashier or salesgirl where she can't climb up her career ladder there. She need a real job. A job that will help her in getting what she want. A job that promise her bright future. Let all hope that she'll get what she want.

P/S: The Unemployed Girl is me.

K-DRAMA ILJIMAE

2009-06-30T09:41:00.002+08:00

Date : 30th June 2009

Time : 0941

Phewww... at last... I managed to get a Korean Drama title Iljimae which the main cast is LEE JUN KI. I actually managed to get the first episode, I don't know why it takes a long time to dwld it. Hopefully the second episode woudn't take much time as the first one to download.

Oh yeahh.. I just got myself a Live JOurnal account. I forgot what's my link are but anyway, nevermind. I'll update later. I heard that through LJ we can get stuff that we want. Especially dramas but of course we need to offer something back right?

Anyway, can't wait to watch this first episode of Lee Jun Ki.

P/S: All over Jun Ki right now.

Retrenchment????

2009-06-29T21:03:00.003+08:00

Date :29th of June 2009

Time : 2104

Yep, I am killing myself slowly. With what? With all the clothes and stuff that I view through my favourite fashion spot. Haiihh.. I CAN'T GET HOLD OF THEM YET. Hope can get them sooner, WHEN I'M EMPLOYED!!

Gosh.. can't these people give some faces to the newbies in the industry. I mean like, come on , you want someone who is experienced in certain field, why can't you give that job to someone fresh like me?? At least I got a diploma and will be a good asset for their company, I CAN GUARANTEE YOU THAT!

If you invest some training on me, I can say that I can digest it all and it will stay there till the rest of my life. Some fast learner ain't I. Not to be arrogant or what, it's just that all these people is focusing on helping those people in the retrenchment thingy. What about the fresh graduates? We need a lot of bucks to mould our own life too. For those retrenchment thingy people, sorry to say but I don't think you guys deserve to be help.

I mean, you had work for so long, you must have some savings. With that, you can start all over again. If you say that your salary is low, that's not my problem, why did you get a job with low payment if you have a big family to feed????

Anyway, if you get the retrenchment thingy and got sacked by your bos, doesn't this mean anything to you? If you a productive person, will the bos sack you ? I mean, come on, not many bosses willing to let their valuable asset unemployed. This also means that you guys didn't do a good job for the company. Ain't I'm right??

And for those factory workers, I'm not blaming you for choosing a low pay jobs but I'm sure there are some barricade for you to get it. No hard feeling eyh.. it's just my opinion. The thing is , I know that not much of our people willing to work in a factory or something related because of the salary and the soo called 'status'. Another thing is that even the manufacturing industry nowadays filled with foreigners. Why? because they willing to work for a low salary. Eventhough their labor are cheap but the government need to stop or reduce the import of human labor from other countries and start helping fellow Malaysians for REAL.

Wow, I state some points of my own and I don't know why. Maybe because I'm unemployed. Hihi...

P/S : Gimme some jobs.. need more money need more money...

Decline

2009-06-25T14:41:00.002+08:00

Date : 25th June 2009

Time : 1445

This post I dedicate to my dad even though he didn't read it. I just want to say that I'm sorry . I can't work or 'menumpang' in other people company. I don't care whether they are your friends or whatsoever but I just can't do this.

This is because I know nothing bout the company, the people and the business that they doing. I don't want to be the company partner who know nothing and just do whatever people ask to do . The timing is not right for me to get myself in the business world. I will involve in business but not now. For me, I need to prepare a lot of thing before I get the title businesswoman. I prefer everything to go smoothly when I handle thing such as possessing strong financial base *my own money* and strong network base *my connection*.

I pray the best for you and hope you realize how old are you, you are not young anymore. So, stop acting like youngster k?

P/S : I know things that you think I don't know

Alhamdulillah

2009-06-23T21:00:00.003+08:00

Date : 23rd June 2009

Time : 2101

ALHAMDULILLAH

I just received a sms from my dad that we might be getting a site in Kulim. I called him after that and found out that the project in Johore is progressing very well. I'm glad to hear that, hope it does progressing well. I know that my dad put a lot of effort in this project and maybe this will work out for him.

When I heard bout the site in Kulim, I'm sure I need to ask some favors from one of my friends to handle that project *if we get it*. Let's pray hard and work smart to get it kay!!

Anyway, I just finished my shower and guess what?? Acnes and pimples are attacking my face! NOOOOOO!!!! Need support from Oxy 10 tonite. These creatures won't be able to avoid the counter-attack of OXY 10. HAHAHAHA *evil grin*

I might need to get back to KL by this week but I'm not sure when. I hope I'm not the one driving. Hmmm.... Let's get on a train again. At least I can rest but after this, i'm not gonna buy a 2nd Class ticket anymore. I need the bed for a large space of privacy.

I'm not saying that I hate 2nd Class. It's just that I had an annoying experience before. The story began with....

I purchased a train ticket from KL to Butterworth. There are 2 empty seats on my left. When the train depart from KL , it stopped at a station and there where the 2 most annoying people seated on my left. At first, this idiot trying to start a conversation. I thought it's just a short and simple conversation, so I just go with. After that, I try to get some rest but this idiot keep on talking and trying to 'perli' or tease me. It was damn annoying i tell you. I hardly get some rest during the journey.

After several hours, he stop talking because he was fast alseep. Thank God he shut up. At 3 - 4 am, there's a guy who is not so educated *i know this because I heard he said that he did'nt complete his primary school* chat with those idiots. I thought this annoying people work as some executive level type of jobs *since he is so arrogant* but it iurn out that he is just a salesman or salesperson. He sells car, Proton car to be accurate.

Seriously, such a person are not up to my standard. Call me arrogant or snobbish but I can't really mingle with those type of people. I don't mind who are they and what they do, it's just the thinking that must be same or crazy as me before they can even speak to me. If not, you better shut up.

There ... End of the story

P/S : My internet connection SUCK!!

The Path of My Future Career Life

2009-06-22T21:07:00.003+08:00

Date : 22nd June 2009
Time : 2119

I'm supposed to post an entry about my journey to KL, Negeri Sembilan and Johor last week. Too bad that I'm damn exhausted after all those traveling and left me with minimum energy. So, I spend my time sleeping all the way for the whole one day. I became a lazy bump.

Well, during my 'traveling hour' with some of my partners. There's a lady whom asked about my birthdate and start calculating on my future. From what I heard, she keep on saying good stuff about me. Since that day, I kept on thinking what type of business should I establish because she said that my future in business is good. Maryam Maryam, she can really be influence easily. Well, duhh!! because she said nice things about me. Anyway, establish a business is worth a try but if I really want to be in this business field, I prefer to work first, get some experience, survey the market and most importantly, GET A LOT OF MONEY to ensure the business is stabilize. In business world, you never know when you will collapse. Better be safe than sorry, I tell ya.

P/S: Can I become a successful businesswoman? HELL YEAH!!!

KL AGAIN????

2009-06-14T21:48:00.002+08:00

DATE : 14th June 2009

TIME : 2149

I know I know. This is the second time in a day I post something here and yes yes, I don't have anything to do because I'm JOBLESS!!! There, satisfied?? Okay, I'm not here to nagg about my jobless thingy which I had done that in several of my previous posts. I'm here just to talk about my job application which also related to my jobless situation. Hehe... can't really run from that jobless status of mine.

Well, I had made several online job applications which mostly related to my field *tourism and hotel management*. For the past one month, it's hard for me to see an advertisement regards travel consultant vacancies so I changed my direction to search for a job which got to do with administration. Even after I changed my direction, there's nothing appear in front of my screen for several weeks.

But then, I think I got lucky because I saw this ad about vacancies in a hotel in Langkawi which they will provide with everything if I manage to get the spot. Besides that, the salary that they stated in the ad is quite ok *I hope it's true though*. So, I applied for that position after consulted it with my mom.

The thing is, today I just applied for several jobs regarding tourism and all of it based in KL. Yeap. KL. The place where I can't really blend in. I just got bored with this KL stuff, for me 2 years plus staying and studying there is enough . Seriously, I can't really survive with those plastic. KL FORCE me to be PLASTIC. Even though my hatred towards KL is kind a bad but we all have to make a living. If my 'rezeki' is there, then Hello Again KL!

Fave Online Shopping Spot

2009-06-14T14:56:00.002+08:00

Date : 14th June 2009

Time : 1519

In my past post title Online SHOPPING!!! where I was all into online shop hopping, I didn't even mention my fave spot. Today , I just give ya the link and check it out yourself.

CocoBobo

Apple Blossom

Apple Blossom Collection

Angelcastle

AnnYee

The reason I love these site is because their fashion is up to date, affordable *especially the top 3 link* and easy to make payment *since I don't have a credit card*. I'm currently still searching for other sites and for those who have the same interest with me, please be nice and share some with me *wink-wink* ^0^.

A New Wardrobe for me!!

2009-06-13T18:30:00.002+08:00

Date : 13th June 2009
Time : 1903

After several years had passed, today, I officially got my own wardrobe. Even though it's just a normal wardrobe, as long as I can stuff all my properties inside, I'm satisfied. I'm actually just ate my dinner. My mom made a SAMBAL IKAN BILIS PETAI. If I'm away, my mom's cooking will be the one that I'll crave for.

School will start this Monday, it's time for me to fulfill my responsibility again to send and fetch my brother to and from school. Even though it's not much work but it's very tiring. I don't know what else I want to insert here. Nothing cross my mind but I just have the urge to post something. Till then, Happy Ending Your School Holiday!

Internet Problem. AGAIN!!

2009-06-12T18:39:00.003+08:00

Date : 12th June 2009

Time : 1842

Well, it's looks like my internet connection is ok-ok right now. I hadn't been online lately. Thanks to my unstable internet connection, I just called out trice to Tmnet hotline and it took me through 3 person to solve my unstable internet problem. They made a report for me and said that the problem will be attend in 2 working days. That means 4 days for me because tomorrow is public holiday. Waiting again.

It's weird that now, my connection kind a stabilize on its own. Maybe those technician already solve it I guess. Anyway, I just complete my resume and upload my kind a last 4 months passport photo. I know that the picture is kind a ugly but I will update the recent pic later. Kind a lazy to go to the photo shop then take picture, put up a fake smile that will make me look weird and then wait some more for the pictures to be printed and then go back. Online and upload it.

Phew~

I just do it tomorow. Too many stuff. I applied some jobs and one of them is in Langkawi, my mom told me to try my luck because the benefits are not bad and the payment (as what I can see in the advertisement) kind a good. I hope I can get it. But to think of it, I don't really like to stay away from my parent. I want to be close to them because nobody know what will happen and if i'm near to them, I can help them with lot of things. When I think bout it, maybe I should start my own life. By the way, if I do get the position *Insyallah*, Langkawi is not that far from Penang . Take a boat or a plane, *whoosh* Welcome to Penang.

Anyway, I still need to get my SPM slip frommy old school. I hope they didn't send it to the Ministry of Education in KL. If they do, I have to go there and collect it. Troublesome I tell you.

This chair is killing my back. I need to stop here and disturb my brother in front. At least, that will release my back pain.

P.S: I'm down by 1 kg right now. YIPPIIEEEE!!!

Online SHOPPING!!!

2009-06-02T00:26:00.002+08:00

Date : 2nd of June 2009
Time : 0030

Even though the title is about online shopping, but it's not it. Few days ago, while I was playing games in FB. I saw an add about an online clothing shop, so I gave it a click and WALLAAHH~~~ The stuff in there really matches with all my favorite fashion styles **even though I didn't wear it** because most of it came from Korea, Japan and Taiwan and the best part is their local and I don't have to use credit cards, they also accept Maybank2u stuff.

But the worse part is, even though all of their garment in M or L size, I'm sure I can't fit in because their L is for those really small people L. So , need to work hard on thinning my body I guess. The other worse part is my that currently, my bank account weather is bad. It's drought there, so can't do any shopping now.

By the way, I think I already said bout this but I just wanna said it again. I'm hunting for jobs now. Anybody who can help me, do contact me.

See ya.

P/S : I'm in a very damn good mood even though didn't finish up my resume. Need to finish it up by this week. Hope I'll get the job.

Dilemma Again

2009-05-16T14:43:00.002+08:00

Date : 16th May 2009
Time : 1445

This is a fresh one, a friend of mine just told me that she will continue her study in engineering this June, if I'm not mistaken. Well mate, maybe that course is better. HEHE. Anyway, I started to envy her because her family able to support her financially since she will enroll in a private college I assume. As for me, my family able to support but as I grow up, I kinda felt embarrassed asking for my parent money in order to further my studies. Wake up Maryam, your parent need to support 3 more siblings of yours.

Thus, I think even though it's not the right time to have a stable job now, it's worth a try to gather all the experience as much as I can.

I learn that experience make you more valuable in the future but I can't deny the fact that education is one of the important things in life. So, I will continue my studies when the time comes. For now, let's hit the tough life as a working adults. Before even entering that phase, I need to get myself a decent job. hehehe....

Ps: Not everything we dream about will come true and not everything that we plan will work out.

I NEED JOB!!!

2009-05-15T19:25:00.004+08:00

Date : 15 May 2009
Time: 1926 (Malaysia's Time)

Yesterday, I went online searching for courses, colleges and universities. I really want to go back to study, even though I just finished my final a couple of weeks ago, it's not just about study. It's about degree. I want one. I started to think maybe if I enroll in the local universities provided by the government, I might be able to cut a lot of cost compared to the private universities and colleges. On the other side of my mind, I don't like the environment in the local universities, it's not like I've been there but because I saw what the environment did to one of my dearest friend. Their behavior and thinking is very very different.

Besides local universities, I thought about to further my study in Australia but I don't think I have the courage. So, I put aside that plan. Then, I come to an extent where I decided to work, thus, straight away after that, I logged in to the Jobstreet and view all the vacancies. I'm hoping to get a job in Penang because I don't want to burden my family. I don't want to work outside Penang because it gives me difficulties and my parent still need to continuing keep giving me money until I manage to stabilize myself.

There's a lot more beside those reason. I don't have to explain all that here. Maybe after I work, I might continue my degree and hopefully until MASTER but I'm sure I will change my major becasue it seems like my field of study and working does not 'care' about diploma. They just want experience.

PS: I want to have my own 'homestay' program. To those who can help, email me.

Compliment to TMnet

2009-05-15T06:35:00.002+08:00

All this while, I heard a lot of complaints related to the government services. Recently, I had several problems with my house phone and the streamyx. We didn't know how to call the 100 which is the TMnet hotline, I guess, because my house phone not able to make a call and receive a call. Therefore, I went to the TMnet centre in Sunshine Square. (I dont want to use my cellphone, not worth it to waste my credits on these stuff)

Once I step in the centre, of course their greeting service is not excellent but ok-ok la. It looks like I just need to call the 100 line. The girl on the line is wuite good. Their english is ok and they are fast. They gave me 24 hours to wait for them to check and settle these problems. Guess what, after 24 hours, I did get my PC online and my house phone sounds as usual.

Thanks for the services without charging me with additional costs. (I hope it doesn't appear in my phone bill. ) (^0^)

BZ bZ bZ bZZZZZ

2009-04-01T10:07:00.001+08:00

Currently busy with my studies and final... back online when i'm in penang kay....

cHEATED!!

2009-02-24T10:52:00.004+08:00

22nd february 2009

Recently, I bought a detergent and fabric softener liquid from my housemate. I usually buy this stuff by myself but since she said that the price is cheaper because her sister's friend supplying it, so I give it a go.

I bought 1 bottle of Softlan softener and Dynamo. I don't know how much these two things cost in the market because I just took whatever I want and never bother about the price. I paid RM 15 for these 2 bottles and she said that the bottle contain 2 litre.

Again, my brain is very very weak in all these measurement and stuff. So , I had a doubt about the bottle. They used the sauce bottle and not the manufacturer bottle, the reason they gave is that there's no more bottle left. I started to feel cheated. Well, I expect it to be in perfect condition not in a sauce bottle like these.

The so called DYNAMO

The so called SOFTLAN

My doubt increase the most when I started use the detergent and softener. Guess what, they don't smell and the most obvious thing is that softener need to be very fragrant but this one is not. I poured quite a lot but the scent is not there.

I'm gonna go to Giant of Carrefour tomorrow and find out the real fragrance and the price of those 2 products.

Tooth-ache!!

2009-02-24T10:48:00.002+08:00

21st February 2009

Despite my gum ache yesterday, I continue eating sweet stuff. You know why?? My housemate a.k.a another bestfriend just came back from Kelantan and she bought me a lot of stuff. Especially the sweet things which even she doesn't know the name of the sweet stuff.

Well, one of them is somekind of sweet tamarind, I don't know what's the real name is but it's the round 'asam' with sugar around it. I'm sure it's very well-known in for Malaysian.

Beside that, she also brought me something which the texture of the sweet like a beard and inside of it there's a certain powder or flour. It's not sweet but just nice and I finished the whole packet of it alone without the help of others. Let me show you the sweet stuffs and sweet things that I mention just now.

The sweeet pink stuff

A bit of it

Ps- Brush your teeth before you go to bed or the gum and tooth ache will be bad.

Sweet Day!!

2009-02-24T10:30:00.007+08:00

19th February 2009

NOwadays, I can't update this blog of mine on time since there's no internet connection at my place. So, most of my blog will be up late.

So, today is 19th of February and it's Thursday.I went out with Tasha and guess what?? It's The SWEET DAY!!!

It's not actually sweet in term of the time we had but it's sweet because of the foods that we ate today. We went to Midvalley on that day and to avoid the confusing and troublesome parking of Midvalley, we parked at Garden. The parking fees is quite similar to Midvalley and much more comfortable and easy to navigate inside there. So, to you guys out there. Park your cars at Garden's parking. Much more worth it than Midvalley's parking space.

While we was walking without aims, my stomach triggered the emergency switch. Then, both of us started look around for cafe or anything to fill up my stomach. Mind you that before we came to Midvalley, we already ate at Subway but it's not enough for my stomach. So, we choose SWEETCHAT cafe.

We planned to taste the desserts which make them famous. So, I choose durian pancake despite tasha's hatred to durian and tasha chose sago pudding.

Here's the durian pancake and the sago pudding.

The durian pancake

We also ordered their chinese new year set of baked rice with cream sauce and their beverage of ice , triple prosperity.

The baked rice with cream sauce

The durian pancake taste like durian. DUHH! For me, paying RM 6 for 3 cube of that pancake is not worth it and let me tell you why. It taste exactly like durian, I mean, of course it taste like durian coz it's a durian pancake but what I'm saying is that there's no special taste they add in. I think they add whipped cream and wrapped using some kind of popia skin. I suggest you to buy RM 6 of the real durian instead of eating the pancake. Much more satisfied and worth it.

The baked rice is nice and just nice but I don't like the sagoo pudding. It's just doesn't go with my taste bud. I also doesn't like the triple prosperity ice beverage. It taste weird. Neither of us finished it. We chat a lot and don't realize that it's already 7 pm.

At the end of the day, I got a toothache or more appropriate, gum ache due to extreme exposure to sweetness. hihihi..

FREEDOM!! FREEDOM!! & ANNOYING PEOPLE

2009-02-16T11:01:00.003+08:00

16th February 2009

I'm freEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I just finished my COST ACCOUNTING assignment and just need to submit it by tomorrow. I'm damn glad that this thing is done!!!

All I need now is a REST. Seriously, this assignment of mine literally make me sick as in real sick. I'm damn tired and my brain can't think of anything. Thanks to my so BRILLIANT AND HELPFUL GROUP MEMBERS, they deserve this credit for making my illness worse. I don't care what others or they want to say but this blog dedicated to those people who didn't put their efforts in working to gether as a team.

Let me tell you something about my group members, among three of them, only 1 person really did his task and help me a lot. Even though he's too pushy and damn panic bout the assignment but he's ok. He's a good worker but he can't be leader, seriously, if he's the leader, everything will be upside down because of his panic attack. Come on , CHILL !! we need to submit it tomorrow, not today. And he make me come to college at 9.00 am on monday which I don't have any class. No personal feeling ok mates. It's all bout work. It's just my opinion. Thanks for the help that you lend.

OK. The next part would be the other two group member. These two people, I told them from the beginning to seek for my help if they can't do it. Well, what can I say, they all the type that you called stupid but arrogant. In the end, what I got is a piece of last minute works which is crap and totally useless. I had to edit all that fucking things again for a couple of hours then there's Brian and Faoiruz keeps on bothering me with these and that and some stupid shits.

I need to my works man. Gimme a break. By the way, credit goes to Fairuz too for finishing up the vertical and horizontal stuff. With Allah willing i guess, I managed to continue my work even though my flu and fever getting worse. For the third person in my group, I don't even want to mention about her. What can I say here is I don't know why I always got the suckest** group.

It's true what Tasha said, these type of people makes us feel we damn smart. hehe.. I love that!!!

PEOPLE, I HOPE YOU DOES NOt TAKE IT PERSONALLY WITH WHAT EVER I MENTIONED, IF YOU WANT TO STRIKE ME BACK, SPIT IT OUT IN FRONT OR IN MY BLOG. I DONT CARE. IT'S JUST THAT YOU *certain persons* annoys me too much.

ps: i need a break

Childhood Memories

2009-02-11T11:27:00.003+08:00

11th February 2009

It's 11.22 am and i'm still in college. Just don't feel like going back home . With the time that I have now, I went through my myspace account and review through several friends that I had bookmarked before. And I saw the list of my childhood friends pr I rather call them Bukit Gedong friends whom I never see them since the day I left for my college. I'm hoping that one day we can gather back together and hang out like before except that we are young adults now.

It's interesting when you gather with all your long-never-seen-friends and chit chat and also notice how far can people changed and how can they not change.

Welcome Monen Version 2 and The Transportation Dilemma.

2009-02-02T06:28:00.003+08:00

2nd February 2009

It's 6.30 a.m and I don't know why I can't sleep. Nervous?? I don't think so, I've been traveling by bus for years. I can't be nervous by that. Scared?? hmmm... you can consider that as one of the factors because recently I heard that the bus won't be stopping anymore at the R&R stop instead they just skipped them and head straight for the destination. That really freak me out since my bowel system is not that good to hold on my Pi Pi and P0o Poo for 4-5 hours long.

I just wished I traveled with Tasha later, at least we can talk and talk and talk until I doesn't realize I don't need to go for my Pi Pi anymore. Reading book is a bad suggestion because I will get excited and the adrenalin will rush into me and increase the already high percentage of peeing once in 20 minutes and that's bad. Very very bad. I think I need to do some of my assignment to distract me from this traveling phobia. I really should choose to go back by train. It's easier, the loo will always be there for me.

Let me ignore that fear of mine for a while and talk about **drum rolls ** BRAND NEW MONEN. Since my late cat, Monen, had died, we only have TC . Then, my mom brought home with her a very cute but NUTS cat. I said that because the first time I saw it, It was soo fierce until now. So ladies and gentlemen, I present to you Monen.

I dont have her full pictures but I'll snap it before I went back to KL. By the way, I spend time with my family yesterday and guess what... That's the only day I went out despite all the free time I had for the one week long Chinese New Year Holiday. It's frustrating. Anyway, I had a Rib Eye Steak in TEsco and My goodness. It sucks. It's chewy and it stuck between my teeths but it had been saved by the black pepper sauce. Kind a nice but not superb nice. Not gonna eat that thing there anymore. I actually miss the BJ Food Court Yong Tau Foo , Sizzling Hotplate Noodle, Tomyam Noodle and Laksa. I wonder where are the Aunties and Uncles went after they close down their shoplots in BJ. What I know, the sizzling hotplate noodles uncle might already established a new shoplot in Giant but it's was a Malay guy who handle it and there's none chinese working there. I think. Well, I'm not gonna think bout it coz I'm started to feel hungry. Wanna force myself to get some sleep now.

Cutest Blog Award!! ^*^

2009-02-01T15:22:00.005+08:00

For this Cutest Blog Award, I had been tagged by Tasha which received this instruction by her friend. So here I am being tagged and need to accomplish this task.

Peraturan untuk menerima award ini ialah:

1. copy badge "2008 cute's 3logger award" di atas untuk diletakkan di blog anda.
2. link/ceritakan kembali siapa yang memberikan award ini kepada anda.
3. setiap blogger mesti menyatakan 10 fakta/hobi diri sendiri sebelum memilih penerima award seterusnya (anda di-tag).
4. anda perlu memilih 10 penerima award seterusnya dan menyatakan nama mereka di blog anda.
5. jangan lupa melawat blog kawan anda dan meninggalkan komen yang menyatakan mereka telah di tag.

Translation:
Rules to accept this award:
1. Copy this badge and post it in your blog. 2. Link the person who tagged you and talk a lil bit on them. 3. Every blogger have to state 10 facts/hobby before choosing the next 10 person to be tag. 4. You have to choose 10 person to receive this award and state their name in your post. 5. Don't forget to visit their blog and inform them that they've been tagged. PS : I just copy paste this instruction from Tasha's blog. I reserve the credit to her for translating the instruction. **I'm too lazy to translate myself**

And here are the checklist :-

Done.
Done. She is Tasha.
Tasha is one of my best friend which stick with me through thick and thin, happiness and sadness, sane and insane. She's the first person I'll go to share my problems, my life, advice and all the activities that best friends do. I knew her since high school in St. George Girl School and we became closer due to the short Diploma course of IT in Cambridge International Centre and the 'SCANNING' activities in Gurney Plaza. From there, I would say that we experienced tons of things together and enjoy every moment together. There are lot of stuff I can talk about this very best friend of mine but it takes me forever to talk about her. Here, I will simplify her as a best friend who always be there when you need her. I'll never trade this friendship of us with anything.
10 Facts and hobbies of mine:--

WANT TO GO TO JAPAN SOOOOOO MUCH!!!!!
Love every single thing bout Japan or to be more accurate Japanese.
Dream to own a travel and tourism related business in the future but not a travel agency.
Loves to annoy people with my facial expression.
Always win others but not Tasha and Tiqah in term of debate.
Always tried my best to change myself and at the same time does not realize that I already accomplish that. Still, I want more than that.
Does not love shopping much unless I found something that I really want.
Dare to stalk but not to approach *especially cute guys*
Loves my family, best friends a lot and that guy too.
DYING TO INVOLVE IN A FIGHT. PHYSICALLY.

4. The 10 People I choose are :-

Sherry - Check her bulletin board.
Sefiroth
Zakiah
Asmah
Adilah
Shaun
Black Oni
Raja Teh
Iza Baata
Alia

There you go.. and for the next task.. I'll pass to them.

Port Dickson Hang Out Plan

2009-01-30T21:05:00.002+08:00

30th January 2009

It's Friday and until today, I still did nothing from the first day I arrived in Penang to spend my Chinese New Year holiday.

I suppose to hang out with Kiah but she got flu , fever and cough. Pity her. Even though it's has been months since the last time I saw her *means I miss her*, I still don't want the virus spread to me. hehe. Sorry Kiah.

But she said she might be able to meet me tomorrow morning or afternoon *means today*. It's because of 1 reason. She miss me. It's not like I want to boast about it or something but I'm really touched by that message that she send to me. It's because that it came from someone that I didn't expect to say that phrase.

It's not like everyday a friend will say that to you right. I mean for me, I can even count with my fingers the number of my friends that actually said that since the day I was born.

I hope I'll be meeting her tomorrow with her condition is stable. Hehe. I still don't want to get the germs. Hehe.

By the way, I'm planning to invite my friends whom I rarely spent time with to hang out in PD. Just friends and no partners ok. I'm sick of those people who does not know the meaning of FRIENDS HANG OUT. For god sake, leave your partners for a while. Let them breath and more importantly. Let YOU breath and relax. Please don't suffocate yourself with those couple's problem for a while. Let be free for just one day and get out from those life.

OK. I'm going a little overboard here. To put it simple. I just miss the moment I spend with them. That's all and I just want to relive it back. Even for a moment.

I hope this planning will come true because till this very day. Everything I planned will not happen. So, I need your support guys!!

PD: Let's swims to the never ending border of the sea.

COURSEWORK!!

2009-01-30T21:01:00.003+08:00

28th January 2009

Well, it's 1 a.m in the morning and I still can't sleep. I'm actually thinking about my assignment which due on 16th February and it's not long from now. I just hate this annual report stuff. Why do we have to analyse other people finance stuff??? Are they paying me? I DON'T THINK SO . But the person in charge will definitely give me marks based on that annual report.

*sigh*

This is so complicated. Why does this course have this module?? I'm not here to be a FREAKIN ACCOUNTANT!!!

Why am I complaining soo much??

NOTES TO MYSELF: HELLO MARYAM!!! Wake up!! Most of your marks will come from there. Just try your best. Don't be like before where you depend soo much on others and as the result, you have to face this subject for the third time.

OK OK ... that was suppose to be within me only...

Well, need to get back to work tomorrow and squeeze my brain till there's no tomorrow.

PS: Talking bout squeeze, there's one commercial of Hall's mint that I love.

Cassis... 26th January 2009

2009-01-26T02:37:00.002+08:00

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR TO THOSE WHO CELEBRATE IT!!!

Even though it's the OX's year, I'm looking forward for the Dragon year. That's me!!
Well, I have not much to say here because apparently, I can't sleep and all I can think of is post some entry.

So, I decided to post one of the lyric of my favourite song. It's Cassis by The Gazette **I know I know** I really love the music, it's just BEAUTIFUL!

Here goes.

CASSIS

zutto kurikaeshiteta zutto kanashimasete bakari datta
kitto anata sae mo kizutsukete boku wa ugokenu mama
anata ni fureru koto ga naze konna ni kurushii no desu ka?

kitto onaji koto wo kurikaeshite anata wo ushinatte shimau no ga kowakatta kara

yori sou koto de nuguou to shita wasurekirenakatta hi wo
anata wa nani mo kikazu ni kono te wo nigettekureta ne

ashita anata no kimochi ga hanarete mo
kitto kawarazu ai shiteiru.
ashita anata ni boku ga mienakute mo
kitto kawarazu ai shiteiru.
I will walk together, the future not promised
It keeps walking together, to the future in which you are..

tsurai koto sae wasureru kurai
anata wo omotteiru
aenai yoru wo kazoeru tabi ni
kogareru mune

kake chigai no sabishisa tsunoru dou ka hitorikiri de nakanaide
donna ni hanareteite mo shinjiaeru futari de iyou

dou ka kono mama waratteitai
anata wo kizutsuke sasenaide
toki ga tatsu tabi usurete itta
anna omoi kurikaeshitakunai
ashita anata no kimochi ga hanarete mo
kitto kawarazu ai shiteiru
ashita anata ni boku ga mienakute mo
kitto kawarazu ai shiteiru.
dou ka boku dake wo mitsumeteite
dou ka kono te ga tokenu you

I will walk together, the future not promised
It keeps walking together, to future in which you are...

English Lyric

Incessantly repeated Incessantly I just made you sad
Certainly I even hurt you,too and I am unable to move, how it is now
Touching you Why does it hurt like that?
Certainly the same things will be repeated again and because of that I was
afraid of loosing you completely
Since we tried to make our meeting unhappened The day which I did not forget at all
You have not asked me anymore (and) You have taken my hand tightly,haven't you

Tomorrow,even if your feelings are parted from me
Certainly it will not change, I love you
Tomorrow, even if you cannot see me
Certainly it will not change, I love you.
I will walk together, the future not promised
It keeps walking together, to the future in which you are...

Even the hard things Almost forgotten
I am thinking of you
Every time I count the nights (in which) we cannot meet one another
My inside (heart) burns
The false loneliness gets heavily Somehow I don't cry alone and
No matter by what, even if we are seperated from each other We can trust one another, let us be together

Somehow, like it is I want to laugh
I do not let you being hurt and
Every time, when the time passed by It was fading away
Such thoughts I don not want to repeat them
Tomorrow,even if your feelings are parted from me
Certainly it will not change, I love you
Tomorrow, even if you cannot see me
Certainly it will not change, I love you.
Somehow you are staring just at me and
Somehow so that these hands do not come off (each other)

I will walk together, the future not promised
It keeps walking together, to the future in which you are...

I'll put this song to the playlist next to me here so you can listen how beautiful it is. BUT, if it's not up until your type of song and you hate it, I don't give a damn. Oh, and i'll be deleting the thai song. hehe .. someone will be relieve when she heard this.

Notice!!

2009-01-25T15:30:00.002+08:00

Well, I already posted the entries which I haven't upload before.

I'm currently in LCCT waiting for my flight, I have to wait for about 50 minutes before my flight is here and the best thing is that my battery is running low . It only manage to hold it breath for only 30 minutes.

Oh well, I'll just do my part time job later ... SCANNING...

See ya.. a cute guy just sat beside me....
let me use my free time to stalk him...

25th January 2009

PET'S WONDERLAND

2009-01-25T15:29:00.001+08:00

January 18th 2009

3.14 pm

Another day of 'BORINGNESS' and it's Sunday. Well, I'm the one that make my day boring by just hang out in my room. I just want to have a day of relaxation once a while. Distance from all those problems that keeps on bothering me.

Anyway, I went out with Tasha yesterday to Midvalley. We supposed to go for the MCTF career fair but once we arrive, it's not in our list of places to go anymore. How can it be??? Well, we stuckd in JAM for about half to one hour until the car in front of us swap driver. That explained how long is the jam in front of the midvalley.

I don't want to talk about the journey but rather talk about GIRLS TIME.

Seriously, I enjoy every minutes of my time yesterday. It's been a long time since I have that feeling. No interruptions and no annoying people with us. Which gave us a lot of time to talk about them. hehehe *evil grin*.

Well, I surely eat a lot yesterday. We also had a short trip to the Pet's Wonderland and there's a very very very smart and cunning bird which worth RM 7000. While watching the bird tried it's best to open the cage door, by then, I know why the bird cost RM 7000.

There's also a big tank of deep sea fish that I loved soo much. You know, with all those beautiful corals, underwater plants and not to missed the colourful and unique sea creatures. If I have a house of my own, I'll definitely gonna place it in my living room for VIEW. Somebody knows why I bold the view word. Hehehe.. you know..

But it will cost a me a fortune to have it for myself and mind the cost of cleaning it and maintain the water, fishes and the plants. Need to have a pro for that.

By the way, I finished reading the novel of Cecilia Ahern and i'm looking forward for the next book.

Currently, i'm trying my best to arrange my life so it won't be as useless as before. Lately, I noticed some part in me does change. I get to spent time with my friends more than before, I became more like an ant. Washing my laundries everyday, keep my room in it's best and cook a bit for myself. I'm proud with myself for these changes even though it's not much, I felt happy with these changes and will reward myself for these achievements.

People out there must be laughing at me who reward myself for simple thing like that. For me, it's not a simple thing. I know myself. it's hard for me to change the old me and I did it in short time. FOr the rewards, it's my way of encouraging myself to be better in the future.

I'm looking forward for more new things to happen this year. Hope it become one of my best year so far.

PS- I want that fish tank!!!

LONELY

2009-01-25T15:27:00.000+08:00

Well, here I am again.
Spitting out all my stories in this blog of mine.
I already started my class and it's just 2 BLOODY CLASS PER WEEK. And I got lots of time to waste.

All the time that i have right now lead me to a road of loneliness. Did you know that lonely and alone is a different things? Well, I didn't realized that until past few years where i read an article about it.

Well, i'm not gonna elaborate much on the meanings here but the subject that i can elaborate more here is the condition of myself. LONELY.

This particular day, I felt lonely again. Since January the 12, I woke up to face the brand new day without hearing my Mom's nag, Wawan's voice, Rahimah's face and my cat's meowws.

I felt lost and lonely.

And today,17th of January 2009. Once again the feeling rush into me and refuse to make an exit. I went out with my bestfriend in hoping to cease out those feelings but it didn't work.

The feelings became worst when someone that i hope will lend his ears to listen to all my sighs , sadness and loneliness just ignore my need of having a companion. Things became worst now as my loneliness turns into frustration. All I need only 20 minutes, at least, for him to listen. That's all. Is that too much ??

I might sounds pathetic but that's me right now. Trying hard to ignore those feelings and here I am. Writing this post at 3.36 a.m.

I'm trying my best to colour my life with lots of wonderful colours that i never thought of its existance and for the moment, i'm grateful with the current colours of my life.

17th January 2009

Forgot!!

2009-01-20T10:57:00.002+08:00

It's been a while since the last time I posted an entry. I already compose 2 entries but I didn't upload it since I don't have the pendrive with me now. It's just that I can't find any open wireless internet access within my room range. There ARE some but you know.. PASSWORD.. Aren't those people understand the phrase of sharing is caring?? They need to practice those, I'll tell ya.

Starting tomorrow I'm gonna make myself busy with my project.. analyzing Malaysian Airlines Annual Report.. UUURRRGHHHH!!! I need to look at those stupid and confusing figures again. Not to mention, the thickness of the annual report is like DICTIONARY!!!! This time, I'm gonna make sure everything goes as planned and there won't be any FREE RIDERS in my group.

Hear me all my group members,

If there are any existence of a free rider, please don't wonder the reason of you having lesser marks than me.

I'm just sick of free riders and other's lame excuse to avoid doing their task.

Pathetic people.

Anyway, I'll be posting those two entries soon.

Ps: Those people out there, whether studying or working.. Please.. Get rid of those free riders.. It's not worth it to have them in your group.. and ... don't be too nice or else they will step you back...

The Result!!!

2009-01-13T13:28:00.002+08:00

Well.. I'm in college right now... My additional semester already started, so I better finish it with greater result. If not, I'll be wasting my mom's money. Thanks to Allah S.W.T that at least I managed to pass all my final semester subjects, so this additional semester, I only need to do one subject which cost me around 4 hours of lectures and 2 days of class ONLY!!

I planned to work since I have a lot of free time and I don't want to waste it with building up fats in my body. I need to do something. I wanted to work but my mom does not allowed me and want me to focus on this one subject. Well, looks like I'm gonna gain more weight.

I'm gonna check out the bookstore later. By the way, yesterday I treated myself a GOOD STORYBOOK. *I Know, I know. It's a miracle right for me to read a book.* I bought the P.S. I LOVE YOU by Cecilia Ahern and I also bought Sushi . heheheh.. never felt better...

Got to go now..

Heading Back to KL

2009-01-10T21:32:00.002+08:00

I'll be in KL tomorrow by 5 pm. I'm not in the mood to go back especially when had to repeated something. I even heard that a lot of people failed Economics and that make me 100X more scared to get the result.

First thing that came to my mind once I arrive in KL will be eating.. hehehe.. and for this New Year. I planned to try to eat proper meals.

Actually, I want to practice the Japanese Meals in my daily food consumption. It's not that I'm trying to show off to people and what so ever. It's just that I really wanted to do that all this time. I just hope that it will go well.

ANyway, to those who still enjoying their holiday, have fun and for those who are going to continue their studies or working... Work Hard!!!! **Well, I need that**

RESULT

2009-01-08T22:35:00.002+08:00

I'm here again , access other people wireless, *there's no password required ok?* in my small room in Penang which fills with unwashed cloths.*dirty laundry*.

Well, I'm going back to Sunway this Saturday but I didn't book my ticket yet. My semester result will come out this Monday, 12 Jan 2009 and i'm FREAKING NERVOUS about it. I'm afraid that I'm going to dissappoint myself again by not getting a good grade. I failed my Cost Accounting before and going to repeat the module this semester and I can't afford even a D because it will drag my CGPA points.

And I'm not sure whether I can handle another failure in my life on education. People don't know how down I am when I knew that I failed my Cost Accounting. What they know are to make a speculations on my failure and those speculation are **she played too much.She enjoy too much.she didn't study.she's not that smart**.

Trust me. Those people were great because they manage to make me waste my precious tears on their words. They lucky though because I'm not myself that time.

I studied like hell for that subject yet I still failed. I don't know who's to blame, the only person that I can blame is myself. For not being able to control myself and my mind at that time. That is the worst 'happening' in my life so far because I never failed in my studies. That failure bring me down to earth and I note that there's no pure success without failure.

***I STILL CAN'T BELIEVE THAT I FAILED**

George Carlin's message

2009-01-08T22:24:00.003+08:00

I got this message from someone and I think, we all should read and think about this.

A Message by George Carlin:

The paradox of our time in history is that we have taller buildings but shorter tempers, wider Freeways,but narrower viewpoints. We spend more, but have less, we buy more, but enjoy less. We have bigger houses and smaller families, more conveniences, but less time. We have more degrees but less sense, more knowledge, but less judgment, more experts, yet more problems, more medicine, but less wellness.

We drink too much, smoke too much, spend too recklessly, laugh too little, drive too fast, get too angry, stay up too late, get up too tired, read too little, watch TV too much, and pray too seldom.

We have multiplied our possessions, but reduced our values. We talk too much, love too seldom, and hate too often.

We've learned how to make a living, but not a life. We've added years to life not life to years. We've been all the way to the moon and back, but have trouble crossing the street to meet a new neighbor. We conquered outer space but not inner space. We've done larger things, but not better things.

We've cleaned up the air, but polluted the soul. We've conquered the atom, but not our prejudice. We write more, but learn less. We plan more, but accomplish less. We've learned to rush, but not to wait. We build more computers to hold more information, to produce more copies than ever, but we communicate less and less.

These are the times of fast foods and slow digestion, big men and small character, steep profits and shallow relationships. These are the days of two incomes but more divorce, fancier houses, but broken homes. These are days of quick trips, disposable diapers, throwaway morality, one night stands, overweight bodies, and pills that do everything from cheer, to quiet, to kill. It is a time when there is much in the showroom window and nothing in the stockroom. A time when technology can bring this letter to you, and a time when you can choose either to share this insight, or to just hit delete...

Remember; spend some time with your loved ones, because they are not going to be around forever.

Remember, say a kind word to someone who looks up to you in awe, because that little person soon will grow up and leave your side.

Remember, to give a warm hug to the one next to you, because that is the only treasure you can give with your heart and it doesn't cost a cent.

Remember, to say, 'I love you' to your partner and your loved ones, but most of all mean it. A kiss and an embrace will mend hurt when it comes from deep inside of you.

Remember to hold hands and cherish the moment for someday that person will not be there again.

Give time to love, give time to speak! And give time to share the precious thoughts in your mind.

AND ALWAYS REMEMBER:

Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away.

George Carlin

WEDDING PLAN

2009-01-07T00:22:00.003+08:00

WEDDING PLAN

1. How old are you?
= 20

2. Are you single?
= If I'm not single, I wont be doing this so called WEDDING PLAN

3. In what age do you think you'll get married?
= 30 and above **career and money is waiting for me when I'm below 30**

4. Do you think you'll be marrying the person you are with now?
= Is it POSSIBLE??

5. If not, who do you want to marry?
= I love this questions.. let me give a peek of what I had been listed all these years...
TOP 5
Aoi - The Gazette
The rest of the Gazette's band member (I'll consider this as 1 person)
Nutthachart Chankan
Gackt
Yamapi

6. Do you want a garden/beach weeding, or the traditional wedding?
= I'm not interested on all of the above list, toooooooo PLAIN and NORMAL... I think of something cooler in the future.

7. Your ideal motif?
= Black & Red. I want it to be like a COSTUME PARTY. Kind of like COSPLAY and stuff but I definitely want the BLACK AND RED theme no matter what happen.

8. Where do you plan to go on a honeymoon?
= JAPAN!!! JAPAN!!! JAPAN !!! KOREA!!! JAPAN!!!

9. How many guest do you think you'll invite..
= 400 or more... including those people which I hate or they hates me or my enemies..

10. Do you want an extravagant wedding or a simple wedding?
= With those people listed above going to attend, do you think I want to make it simple??
NO NO NO

12. How many layers of cake do you want to have?
= 1 layer BUT with DIFFERENT types of cakes. So everyone can take which ever they want.

13. Do you prefer having your reception at a hotel or at a simple place?
= I don't think my wedding theme will suits either one of this place.

14. When do you want to get married, evening or morning?
= Night, so I won't sweat a lot!!!!

15. You's rather have your reception outdoors or indoors?
= OUTDOOR!! OUTDOOR!!!

16. Do you like a grand entrance for your groom
= It's ok for me but I want my entrance to be MUCH MUCH MUCH MORE GRAND

17. Name the song/tune you'd like played at your wedding?
=

19. What age do you want to get married?
= refer to Q3 please

20. Describe your ideal husband/wife
= I just leave it blank this part... don't know what to describe.

21. Do you prefer fine dining or just the normal spoon & fork/knife?
= I want fine dining but it does not go well with my theme... Can I make it to Buffet???

23. Honeymoon right after the wedding or days after the wedding?
= 5 days after the wedding

24. Money or household item?
= Gimme MONEY!!!

25. Who will pay for the bill?
= I'll pay the water bill!!!

26. Are you ready for married life?
= NO WAY!! AFTER WHAT I HEARD AND SEE FOR MYSELF ON MARRIAGE.. NO WAY!!

27. will you always be true to your wife/housband?
=YES . NO DOUBT ABOUT IT.

28. How many kids do you like to have?
= I want 4

29. A new house for a newly wed or and old one?
= I dont mind.

31. What kind of cuisine would you like for your wedding?
= Japanese for me and others for the guests

32. Will you record your honeymoon in a cd or dvd?
= I wont

33. Whose wedding plans would you like to know next? choose 5 person.
= Sherry, Nadia, In, Masna and Aduka

Here's the details.. After the long tour of my wedding plan... You might realize or not realize that these plan missing questions number 11, 18 , 22 and 30... hehehe..

The Year of Enigma

2009-01-06T23:30:00.003+08:00

E.N.I.G.M.A.

The word that I rarely use and never use before.

I just thought that it is the most suitable word to describe the year ahead of me. Since nobody knows what might happen ahead.

To tell you the truth, for this very new year I didn't plan anything for this year. I'm kind a have this kind of feeling that if I want to change, I can change anytime and not necessary to wait for the new year. It turned out that I was wrong.

New year simply means a new life, a new perspective, a new spirit, a new character and much more new things to find out. But for me, even though I planned and determined to change something in my life once new year came, everything that i planned and told people bout it 93% won't come true. I don't know why, maybe I didn't put my 100% effort in it and lost interest in changing myself to a new person yet remain certain characteristics of me.

NOBODY... I seriously mean NOBODY in the world can change me... Even though my best friends friends and family gave advise and talk to me everyday... The rarely succeed in changing me... OK.. maybe a bit.. but it's just a tiny part of me which changed.

There's only one thing that can change me totally and that is my H.A.I.R.
Yeah... it's my H.A.I.R...
laugh if you want.

For me, my hair describe myself. That's why I'm very cautious **I don't know what word suit this** on how my hair looks like. That's the reason sometime I always changes my hairstyle drastically without any warning.

Till now, I still haven't found the right hairstyles for my hair . The hairstyles that inside my head right now is J-ROCK styles which I already had past couple of months back in 2008. I need something fresh and make people said 'WOW!!! SHE CHANGED ... A LOT!!!'

Looks like I need to work harder since I'm going back to KL this Saturday.

GANBARRE YO!!!!

Check This Out!!!

2008-12-29T03:10:00.002+08:00

I just added some playlist for you. It's not much but I LOVEEEE these songs.

Enjoy it.

YOU-DONT-KNOW-WHO

2008-12-28T23:56:00.001+08:00

Me & Emma

Well, I have to admit that I do enjoy the time that I spent with Tasha and Emma today. After 2 years, I managed to see Emma and she really lose down her weight ***she's in the military*** and her skin getting darker... hehehehe....

Well, I actually wanted to dig some *PRECIOUS* info from her due to some SENSATIONAL news of her wanting to get married after her degree. In the end, I dug nothing and found out that the marry after degree thing is only some advice she received from her seniors.

I also want to admit that I talk a lot of thing about YOU-DONT-KNOW-WHO characteristics to Emma with the help of Tasha ***hehehe..thanks for the missing info ***. As I expected, even Emma thought YOU-DONT-KNOW-WHO have a mental problem. For me, I know about YOU-DONT-KNOW-WHO mental illness on the day I met YOU-DONT-KNOW-WHO but obviously YOU-DONT-KNOW-WHO didn't tell me. It's just that I realize it by my own. You know, through thinking, action and stuff.

Seriously, when it comes to YOU-DONT-KNOW-WHO topic. I can't finish telling stories about the subject even though you give me one day**if I managed to remember every details if not 2-3 hours would be enough.. minimum!!**.

Well, I guess you have to keep wandering who the hell is YOU-DONT-KNOW-WHO. I'll tell ya when the time is right.

PS: I just realize that I write the 'Well' word a lot.

Tagged!!!

2008-12-27T14:52:00.000+08:00

The rules

Bold the statements that are true to you
Italise the statements that you WISH are true
Leave the fibs alone

Then, stab 5 guys to do the same test

I don’t watch TV these days.
I own lots of books.
I wear glasses or contact lenses.
I love to play video games.
I’ve tried marijuana.
I have been in a threesome.
I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.
I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
I curse sometimes.
I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.
I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
I’m TOTALLY smart.
I’ve broken someone’s bones.
I’m paranoid sometimes.
I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
I need money right now.
I love sushi.
I talk really, really fast.
I have long hair.
I have lost money in Las Vegas.
I have at least one sibling.
I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.
I couldn’t survive without Caller I.D
I like the way I look.
I am usually pessimistic.
I have a lot of mood swings.
I have a hidden talent.
I’m always hyper no matter how much sugar I have.
I have a lot of friends.
I am currently single
I have pecked someone of the same sex.
I enjoy talking on the phone.
I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
I love to shop.
I enjoy window shopping.
I would rather shop than eat.
I don’t hate anyone. I dislike them.
I’m a pretty good dancer.
I’m completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
I have a cell phone.
I believe in God.
I watch MTV on a daily basis.
I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
I’ve rejected someone before.
I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
I want to have children in the future.
I have changed a diaper before.
I’ve called the cops on a friend before.
I’m not allergic to anything.
I have a lot to learn.
I have been with someone at least 10 years older or younger.
I am shy around the opposite sex.
I have tried alcohol before.
I have made a move on a friend’s significant other or crush in the past.
I own the “South Park” movie.
I would die for my best friends.
I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza.
I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.
Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it.
I have dated a close friends’ ex.
I am happy at this moment!!
I’m obsessed with guys
I study for tests most of the time.
I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I’ve ever met.
I can work on a car.
I love my job.
I am comfortable with who I am right now.
I have more than just my ears pierced.
I walk barefoot wherever I can.
I have jumped off a bridge.
I love sea turtles.
I spend ridiculous money on makeup.
I plan on achieving a major goal/dream.
I’m proficient in a musical instrument.
I worked at McDonald’s restaurant.
I hate office jobs.
I love sci-fi movies.
I think water rules.
I went college out of state.
I like sausages.
I love kisses.
I fall for the worst people.
I adore bright colours.
I can’t live without black eyeliner.
I don’t know why the hell I just did this stupid thing.
I usually like covers better than originals.
I can pick up things with my toes.
I can whistle.
I can move my tongue in waves, much like a snakes slither.
I have ridden/owned a horse.
I still have every journal I’ve ever written in
I can’t stick to a diet.
I talk in my sleep.
I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.
Climbing trees is a brilliant past-time.
I have jazz in my blood.
I wear a toe ring.
I have a tattoo.
I can stand at LEAST one person that I work with.
I am a caffeine junkie.
I know what cosplaying is.
I have been to over 15 conventions.
I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical, the better.
I’m an artist.
I only clean my room when necessary.
I love being happy.
I am an adrenaline junkie.

well, tasha tagged me..and I don't know who I want to tag next...

CRITICAL !!!!

2008-12-22T21:52:00.000+08:00

YUP...
The title itself describe my condition right now. I'm currently at the most critical stage of daydreaming or dreams which 100% won't be reality.

Recently, I became totally a fan girl of THE GAZETTE BAND FROM JAPAN. I don't know why i kept on dreaming this stupid things which refer to a WEDDING CEREMONY AND A HONEYMOON TRIP between me and the band guitarist, AOI. I'm a fan of this band since 2006 but recently my mind play tricks on me.

I know it sounds silly and describe me as a person who is 'SYOK SENDIRI' but it's hard for me to control it. Looks like I really need to socialize more rather than lock myself inside the house and keep watching the TV until the TV watch me. Or perhaps I need to consult a doctor to check on my brain or something.

Anyway, let's cut the daydreaming topic.

Today, I help my mom shops for my brothers and sister school necessities. We bought everything except for school bag. You want to know why? It's because it's damn expensive. A bag with a wheel and a picture of BEN 10 cost RM 90.00!!! What the hell are they thinking???? For god sake it's just a bag and I'm sure it can only last for 6 months the most.

I know that for some people, it's cheap or what so ever but for me it's DAMN EXPENSIVE.
Wth that RM 90, I can buy a lot of things. I'm not sure why is it so expensive, if it because of the BEN 10's picture on it, it's not worth it.

Anyway, I want to download PSC TOUR 2005 video. I'll keep this update soon. See ya...

2213
22 DEC 2008
ARY

Not only them..

2008-12-15T18:03:00.000+08:00

In my previous post just now, i only mentioned my college mates.

Well, the person i miss the most is my very best friend, Tasha. To tell you the truth, there are lots of things i wanted to say in this blog about her but i can't find the appropriate sentences to describe how i miss her and how i miss everything that we had done.

TO TASHA.

I know I changed a lot and became a person who is very selfish. I realize that when you came to help me with my presentation. At that time, i felt really bad because i'm like using you or something. I also spent very little time with you nowadays and always decline your invitation for pool or just hang out. Trust me, i really wanted to go but i'm not the original maryam anymore, i choose to stick to a man which i myself doubt about his existence. I'M AN IDIOT!!

I want to thank you for everything you had done to help me and I really appreciate it. Believe it or not, until today, I still remember the advise that you gave. You know, bout HIM. But i don't know why it's hard for me to execute it, ohhh... sorry, i know why. It's because i'm weak.

I'm glad that you are happy with your current life and may ALLAH S.W.T bless you.

PS: The sequence of this post is not properly arrange, so if you don't understand the whole story, ignore it.

6.23pm

Expression college mates

2008-12-15T17:12:00.000+08:00

Well, here goes...

To all my friends past and present,

I want you guys to know that i really miss u guys a lot.

Before, i might said this thousand times to you all but trust me, only 30% of it came from the heart. The rest only for the purpose of replying what you said. I know that I'm bad, evil, cruel and stuff but i just wanted all of you to know that i really miss you all and thankful that all of you are my friends.

To my college mates,
I really had a lot of fun with you guys, even though we always talk behind each other back. To you guys who's reading this blog, i want to say that yes, we do talk behind each other and still can be friends. It's just a similarity that we share. Of course, we do argue, fight, shout and curse but we will end up laughing.

It's weird because before this, i can't tolerate with this type of attitude or personality and stuff but now, you can call me hypocrite or whatsoever, i'm fine with that. It looks like I had to adapt to the situation . I know.. it's just an excuse.

Anyway, through all this years i'm with them. I learned things that i never expect i will learn. By the way, i also found out that someone hates us because we are so damn happy type of girls just because THAT person can't be like us. I hope one day she can become what ever she wanted to be.

Published at 6.03 pm, Malaysia Time